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I have written on here over the years regarding various difficulties in therapy, especially around the amount of time my therapist would cancel or go on vacations or take leaves. She had a near death experience last year and sought therapy herself, and in doing so found someone who is trained...

I have been with my therapist almost 10 years now and we’ve done a lot of really good work. She felt I was ready for emdr so I had one session with someone new for that. That therapist is working with my main T. EMDR T recommended I complete the MID assessment. My score on that prompted them to...

My T sent me to someone for EMDR to work in conjunction with her. I went for my first EMDR session, and the therapist talked about how she is being trained in ART and will use that script as she believes it’s more effective and quicker. So we dove right in with no groundwork except for...

I’ve posted before about therapist attachment issues. In regular life I have an avoidant attachment style. With my T it’s completely disorganized. I trust her. I believe she deserves time off. She goes out of her way for me and I feel very cared about in the relationship. I feel secure with her...

I’ve run up against an issue with my therapist of 8 years. She has been incredible and I think I’ve come really far. But I am very disorganized in my attachment with her and I don’t do well when she cancels last minute. I’m an adult and understand situations warrant it. But she cancels more than...

Has anyone seen anything about this film? (it previews next week). Thoughts on it or Gabor Maté)? I want to make sure he is a reliable resource before I donate to watch the premiere.

During these past two weeks I’ve had a family situation that prompted me to do some digging about my past (I don’t have memories from 0-10) And for the first time I reached out to a cousin to ask some questions about growing up around the family member I assume was the perpetrator of csa for me...

Three and a half years I’ve been working hard at healing from cptsd. I’ve gone to therapy once a week and read every book imaginable. I’ve learned so much. I think I’ve made progress because I can feel emotion sometimes in session. I don’t shut down as much. My T tells me my eye contact is...

I’m having this ongoing weird thing happen with my T. She has been amazing over the last 3 years at teaching me about the brain and helping me understand my own whacked out experiences so that I feel less crazy. It has been a lot of me saying “what if I’m lying/making it up/looking for...

My grandma died this last week. I was so close to her for my entire life and loved her dearly. She was very healthy but came down with pneumonia and for a week declined. It still is shocking. I have very few memories of my childhood between 0-10 and almost all of them I have involve her and her...

I’m not sure what’s going on with my T, or how to fix it. The problem is on my end. A little background: I began seeing her for phobias because they were getting out of control and I was so anxious all the time. I had seen a few T’s prior to her for suspected csa. Basically when I was 19...

My T is the first person I’ve trusted with the details of csa, and my struggle to trust myself and the internal fighting that has taken all of my mental energy for more years than I care to admit. I trust her and for three years she has been consistently attuned, validating, compassionate...

Does anyone else hate this question? Sometimes after a hard session my T will text or email and ask this. (It feels so supportive and means a lot to me. But i never know how to answer). And she usually starts the session with “how have you been this week?” My very close friends will ask as well...

Has anyone had this happen before? Three times in the last few weeks I’m jerked awake from a deep sleep to the sound of a child screaming. I jump out of bed and run to check on kids and all are sleeping peacefully. I feel so panicked and hear it echoing in my head for long after.. no idea what...

Does anyone else do this? I hit a low point last weekend and I don’t reach out during crisis, but after the fact I will email my T and explain what happened, usually to articulate that I need a plan to help me not get back to that low of a place. She responded saying that i have so much on my...

I am a little less than halfway through Healing the Fragmented Selves of Trauma Survivirs: Overcomibg Internal Self-Alienation by Janina Fisher and had to pop on here to tell you all what an amazing read it is so far. It is written for therapists and clients both, and so far has addressed a lot...

Does anyone have anything helpful to read/other resources about Internal Family Systems besides the book (Internal Family Systems Therapy)? I found the book very interesting and it’s a helpful way for me to process inner polarization. But as distinct as my parts feel, i can’t seem to identify...

I'm curious.. how often do you meet with your T, is your T a trauma specialist, and are your topics of conversation in sessions meandering, depending on what is going on in your life, do you mostly process trauma/memories/symptoms, etc or is there an even mix of both?

I've been working on processing my lack of emotional engagement in the room with my T. We've gotten it down to my high level of dissociation, depersonalization specifically. And while I do not have DID, I'm starting to recognize that I have parts that are fairly distinct from each other, and...

So I've recently had the realization that my fear of emotions/vulnerability is making me very stuck in therapy (and in life). We decided to start working on that and last night started going over a timeline I made of experiences I've had where I've actually expressed emotion in the presence of...

So, I've been having a difficult time lately because of childbirth, and not healing properly. Weekly doctor visits and subsequent procedures have been very triggering. Because of this, I've been experiencing physical and emotional flashbacks, (much more than usual). When I have them, aside from...

If anyone can help me process something I would be so grateful. Sorry this is long. Over the last six months or so I was making good progress with my T of a year and a half, after working through a lot of trust issues and dissociation and inability to truth myself and my memories.. we were...

I've been with my T for a year and a half and feel a strange mix of attachment and fear of her. She's an extremely calming, centering presence when I'm with her. She has normalized so many things I used to feel meant I was crazy. I trust her. But I don't know how to feel safe enough with her to...

I like my therapist and trust her as much as I'm able to trust anyone. I have been with her for a year and fortunately I am allowed to email, or she would know much less than I let on in session. I have very limited access to emotions in general, but virtually no access the minute I walk into...

After six months of therapy I'm discovering how dissociated I usually am. When triggered, I usually experience days of fog, feeling far away, etc. And I generally operate out of a slight dissociated state on a regular basis. I'm never quite present and I have a racing mind. Two weeks ago I was...