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Hi! I haven't posted on here in ages. I was diagnosed with PTSD at the age of I think 22. My PTSD was caused due to the symptoms of my mental illness, which is schizoaffective disorder (one of the psychotic disorders). It turns out a lifetime of being tormented/abused/tortured by hallucinations...

It seems to be the one aspect of ptsd I can't beat....I will have a nightmare about the past or sometimes nothing particular happens at all....and then I can't stop ruminating on all the bad things that have happened to me all day. It makes me very depressed and disturbed and I end up eating...

Several months ago there was a situation that triggered my psychosis (not stress induced, my sleep got thrown off on a vacation) and the psychosis of course triggered my ptsd, which had finally calmed down after my move back to my hometown where all my initial worst traumatic experiences...

Anyone have any tips for this? I really do want to be in a relationship again but when it comes down to physical intimacy it's like my body freaks out like all the bad stuff is going on again even if mentally I know I'm fine and it's not. It's like that habitual feeling of "I've got to fight...

My therapist introduced me to it a while ago and I did research on it and it seemed really promising and supported. So I was excited to start. It took a while because I was unstable at the time so she waited for me to be more level. It was weird because during the session I actually barely felt...

I don't want to go into much detail but during my abuse I was forced into a certain position every time before it would start. Eventually it got to where I would assume that position automatically before going to sleep at night because I was just tired of fighting it and wanted to get it over...

I have been in a really bad state for the past couple months. I left this forum a while back because I really felt like I had healed and conquered ptsd. But then I learned we would be moving back to my old hometown where I had many traumatic and painful experiences. I started getting nightmares...

The other night I had a very dark nightmare. In it I was working on some sort of project with my uncle. This ended up turning into us having sex for some reason?! As the sex happened the dream changed and I suddenly became a child. Then it changed again and became an old timey cartoon and I...

I have been having HORRIFIC nightmares every night for a solid three weeks in a row now. They are so bad I don't want to sleep at night and and becoming very sleep deprived as a result as I am staying up as late as I possibly can to avoid them....I don't know what to do or how to stop it....

So basically I've been struggling with an ongoing undiagnosed sleep disorder (still getting many tests done, there are no definitive answers yet). Part of it is my circadian rhythm is messed up badly. I don't become sleepy until early morning hours. Then I tend to sleep until mid-afternoon, like...

I realized that I only started getting them around the time of the abuse. Horrible ones in my legs. Sometimes I would wake up with them. Even years later I still get cramps all over, in my legs, the bottoms of my feet, I even got one in my arm the other day. At my last therapy session I started...

So I posted on here before mentioning I have made so much progress in my discovery I feel like I wouldn't even still qualify for a ptsd diagnosis anymore. However I do acknowledge that there are a couple areas I still have work to do on and was wondering if anyone had any tips. 1. I still have...

Hi, this is something that has weighed on my mind for some time. I wasn't diagnosed with PTSD until I was 19 and always figured the traumatic things that caused it happened when I was 16-17 but I had a lot of unsettling behavior as a young child and I worry that even at that age I had it...

I honestly feel I have made so much progress towards tackling my symptoms of PTSD that if requestioned I wouldn't qualify for the diagnosis anymore. I struggled greatly with it for years but learning to accept it and then focus on healing and tackling symptoms has really made a world of...

On getting a boyfriend....I have so much anxiety around sexual things that I go out of my way to avoid interactions with guys....the only guys I can talk to normally are guys my friends are dating because I know they won't get interested in me....the other day my friend's boyfriend's friend came...

I haven't experienced a flashback in ages now because I learned several coping mechanisms for dealing with them. I'd say the thing that helped most for me was learning what my triggers are and avoiding them. Of course sometimes you can't always avoid triggers. So I then learned how to recognize...

When I talked with my therapist about it before she said when I needed to we could schedule more than one session a week. But now that I contacted her yesterday and asked her if we could do one today as well as Thursday she said she wasn't available! She's apparently not available at all...

I built a tolerance to that so fast (is that possible?) ....almost makes me concerned that the reason why I stopped getting side effects from the Zoloft after 4 days was because it stopped doing anything... Anyways the tension is back for me at night, last night was very rough, and I was waking...

I have another support forum I go on aside from this one for people with psychotic disorders (mostly schizophrenics). I posted about psychosis-related PTSD on there as well, and it is amazing how many people on there feel the same way as I do about their psychotic episodes. (Bad amazing, it's...

So I feel my last therapy session was important because I became aware of something that may play a part in my regular memory loss. (I have a lot of issues with memory) We started talking about something that was very upsetting to me. I felt tears coming and pain/sadness/anxiety rise up in my...

Last session one of the things I talked about with my therapist was whether or not I may be in the prodromal stages of schizophrenia (earliest stage of the disorder, symptoms start to appear but the person still has lucidity and is aware they are experiencing weird things, vs full-blown...

Wow.....ok so I always felt pathetic that I developed PTSD after bad psychotic episodes. I always felt like I didn't deserve to be traumatized by them because they weren't real and were all in my mind. Well I'm starting to research it now, and guess what? There is a phenomenon called...

Would like to report that today was my first day without negative side effects from the Zoloft! :) I was really concerned for a while with the bad anxiety attacks I was getting as well as the jitteriness, but I stuck with it and it's gone! (Hopefully does not come back) My depression hasn't...

Ok so this is what happened to me the last time I tried medication as well. Even after the FIRST pill I begin to experience negative side effects. Zoloft I definitely haven't felt anything as extreme as I got with Lexapro so I do think it's a better fit for me. Like when I first took it...

As was probably evident in my last post I made on here a while back, I have been severely depressed as of lately. I was planning out how I would kill myself. I had started drinking and on a very bad day where I was unable to get out of bed I finally did so by downing shots of vodka and getting...