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I was raped by my Dad when I was 16. It was horrible. This may be to graphic for some people to read, but he used a spiked sadistic sex toy on me while raping me. He also made my mom watch what he was doing to me. I later found out that he raped my mom all the time and used the sex toy on her...

I haven't posted on here in a while. I have been getting in shape doing yoga 6x a week and therapy 2× a week. A few days ago I recovered a memory I had stored in my mind and it involved a hospital experience. I got really traumatized and my nervous system shut down because it was so overwhelmed...

I have been waking up at after about four hours of sleep with my mind driving me nuts. I have been having strange dreams and then usually wake up to a flashback. One morning I woke up reliving the dream I had. I usually feel totally trashed after not getting back to sleep and struggle through...

I was just thinking tonight one of my worst flashbacks involves seeing someone give up and been made to believe by a narcissist that it was somehow my fault. It is hard to explain. My mom was being abused, but my dad was the perpetrator. I was not responsible for his abusive actions but...

I can't do it anymore. I can't fight anymore alone. I don't belong here and others deserve their world. I'm sick, and less than others. This world is for the perfect boastful proud and important. I am nothing and silent. I can't fight them anymore alone and they have always wanted me dead. If I...

I am out of therapy, but will be back into CBT soon. I have been having bad thoughts with paranoid feelings about people lately. I am beginning to realize the thoughts are unreasonable and I am unwell. I am starting to look at everyone as a possible perpetrator and violent. I am afraid of going...

I have been out of my psychiatrists office for months. I have to see her next week. A nurse that was supposed to be helping me ended up going off on me in my apartment telling me I am weak after I trusted him enough to tell him of my rape and violence incidents. He laughed at me and then told me...

Hi, I have C-PTSD diagnosed about four years ago. It took a while to get properly diagnosed, and had been quite the battle. I try to have a positive attitude about the illness, and make the best of things. My PTSD is from long term abuse, and assault. I hope to find other people that...

I have been having more than one physical problem lately. I went to the doctor and got tests preformed. My blood test came back off, and the imaging he sent me for came back as abnormal. He told me I need more imaging in a couple months. I started having other symptoms such as pain in my...