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About eight years ago I applied for cpp in Ontario and was denied. So then I applied for a disability tax credit, appealed and won. I appealed the cpp too but lost, that was 8 years ago. Does anyone know if I reapply for cpp now that I qualify for the disability tax credit will they take it off...

As some of you may remember me and some may not my symptoms are increased memories and therefore I want to numb out. I have had a control over this for almost three years with a few relapses. My mother who I have been sharing a home with and she has been both verbally abusive to me and my son...

After sending in my information the sheet came back with I am not disabled enough? I also have 8 herniated/torn discs along with PTSD. I have been on disability 8 years....because I honestly cannot work, I want to work, I am a nurse and worked hard for that. Does anyone have any suggestions or...

I get that she was suicidal and not talking correctly, obviously not in the right frame of mind..but it was her diary to vent.....does anyone know if in fact she is alive. I read her last post and then she got banned for being so suicidal, just wondered how she got help here if she had no one...

I am very nervous, scared and excited all at the same time. I am sick of being lonely. On my profile I did lay it out on the line..I did write very positive things but I also mentioned I have a back injury, a special needs child and a dysfunctional family. He must have really liked my...

Well I finally made it to the dentist today. I had 3 back teeth pulled with sedation but no nitrous oxide. I have a huge fear of the dentist and the suffocating feeling brought me back to my assault. I was able to stay calm, I squeezed a stress ball and I was in the chair for about 2 hours...

When I was younger I always had good oral hygiene habits, though I had to have a tooth pulled at 11 and that felt traumatic to me as I remember him having a hand on my forehead pushing me down as he was pulling the tooth out. After my assault I started getting nitrous oxide and that helped. I...

I have been waking up in a cold sweat..last night was awful and I do not remember dreaming but does this happen to anyone else or maybe I am experiencing early menopause?

I just got a call from my doctor. I have abnormal squamous cells and she recommends a colposcopy. I am waiting for a call for the referral to the gynecologist. I am scared to death. I know this is common but I was just wondering if anyone else has had this and how did you cope? Going to the...

There was a poll I read earlier about being touched...for anyone that replied that they do not like to be touched...How do you maintain a healthy relationship with a person of the opposite sex. If you ever experienced this and are now in a relationship....How did you manage to overcome this or...

I am just wondering if anyone has tried an on-line site and if it did or did not work and why or why not? I have seen plenty of fish and others that are free like that. There is also E-Harmony which has a low fee. Do you think that by paying and going to the site that actually has a charge...

Well...the last 6 or 7 months the depression, and isolation has been as bad if not worse than it was 6 years ago when I fell apart so badly. I cannot live this way anymore and I know that I am the only one that is going to be able to change this and if I want a life, a good life I am going to...

I have a quick question and was just wondering if anyone would share. How in your relationship ( I guess this would be more for sexual abuse survivors and survivors of physical/emotional trauma) and when in your relationship did your loved one express there PTSD. How much detail was told? Did...

I have always thought I was not normal. I do not like to be touched..no wonder I have been married twice, not good for a marriage. I was reading about sexual anorexia...you avoid it all costs, lack intimacy. Does anyone else suffer from this? If you have or do..have you overcome it? I...

This roller coaster of PTSD..it is hard. I have had good and bad days and the past couple of months...after all my therapy...I have been SO sad. I cannot shake it. I am in therapy..still, have been on and off for about 4 years. Now I am doing EMDR, again. I keep wondering if that is keeping...

My computer is broke...and I need the forum support and can't get it when I need it..that sucks. It should be back soon hopefully! My son has a growth on his kidney and we have a renal cancer history in my family, my Dad died from it. Needless to say, I am worried!!!!! The ct is wed, have...

My son has become a computer addict and it is hard to get anytime with the computer lately. I missing it...he finally went to school today and now the power cord is losing function and I have to wait a couple of weeks to repurchase. Christmas was expensive! I missed the party on the 27th..I...

Well...I went out!!! Had a great time. I have not had a night out or time to myself in a very long time and it was kind of my little reward to myself. I started out yesterday in such a good mood..I got to the hotel and I had the most amazing room at the Hilton, on the 18th floor overlooking the...

I think this is dissacociation but just wanted to know if others experience it. I remember doing EMDR and CBT...in my mind the words of a song would play over and over and it was really hard to focus on what we were doing. Sometimes it is a positive phrase and it is ok to repeat it..other...

Tonight I was on facebook and i deceided to post a general message on my profile. It was a message to see if anyone was interested in having a highschool girls night out at the casino in our city during xmas holidays. I have not seen most of these girls since highschool..that was over 20 years...

This was brought up in anothers diary... I thought I would like to find out others experiences. I choose the wrong people..my best friends and people I trust are people I met in church as a kid. Alot..most of the relationships I have had since then, male or female turn out to be toxic. It...

I swear my dog knows when I am having a bad day. She is not a trained PTsD dog but I swear she knows..today ( I am experiencing some huge withdrawals right now) She has been curled up and at my side all day. She is just the best thing I could have done for myself a few months back. She...

I am balling..tears out of nowhere.. I am deep breathing and saying the words calm..relax but the tears will not stop..overwhelming panick feeling, it is actually almost paralyzing. Just need some support today...I have not had a benzo in about two weeks and Wow...I need one. I keep telling...

:wall:I feel like someone is kicking me right in the ass, literally and my head is going to pop off...I just ate some crackers as I am sure the vomiting will start soon. Today..I feel angry. I am pissed that this is how my life ended up! I need to go and finish the spinal decompressions..before...

I have a lot that I want to put into this post and I finally have the courage to write it..now that I have started..I am feeling a bit exhausted so I will post a bit and come back tomorrow to fully explain. My successes are quite a few right now, I beleive and that is amazing. I have a...