Vent..Just A Bad Day!

[pandora]

:wall:I feel like someone is kicking me right in the ass, literally and my head is going to pop off...I just ate some crackers as I am sure the vomiting will start soon. Today..I feel angry. I am pissed that this is how my life ended up! I need to go and finish the spinal decompressions..before moving..my headaches were so much fewer and far between..BUT this is the second migraine...this week. And...I am going to stop taking the pain killers. The thought of living like this just seems not fair...UUGGHHH...I am having a huge pitty party at the moment.

Anxiety..fear...IBS..this damn headache. In bed all day...like I just feel depleted today. Walking to the bathroom is a challenge....

Positive..my Mom is helping. My sons attitude is better..I just have to keep telling myself tomorrow will be a better day. I am strong, I will get through this....BUT right now if I had a gun..I think I would be tempted to use it. Damn migraines....

 

[Deleted member 541]

Pand,

Sorry that you feel like shit right now, but I wanted to ask you this???/ Is it possible that the migraines that you keep complaining of, are really rebound headaches due to the pain meds that you are addicted too for your back?????? If it's rebound headaches, then once you go through detox, and get clean, they should stop.....

 

[skyp56]

So sorry you are in pain, Pandora! Hang in there, don't let it define you!

I'm throwing some warm, comforting hugs your way!

:Hug_emoticon:

 

[anthony]

Hate them days myself. Hang in there Pand.

The part that I really hate, stress headaches. OMFG... I have to take a prescribed headache tablet, because panadol doesn't even come close. Basically, one of the strongest pain relief tablets before you hit morphine. One will do nothing, two will stop it in its tracks. I can try every trick known to man and try and get rid off it, but it will not stop until I take two tablets. That is one of the few times I have to take medication... stress headaches. Arghhh.

 

[cragger65]

Sounds like a tough ol' go, Pandora, but you are a tough lady, I can tell. Thank God you've got your Mom and your son there with you, no doubt it gives you strength. Some days, I got to agree, it's not worth getting out of bed for, and you've got to give yourself those from time to time. But as you reminded me, there will be better days ahead, you know that. Would a nice hot bath with some Epsom salts help with the pain, do you think? It certainly couldn't hurt. Hope you get a good night's sleep and some relief so tomorrow can be a few shades better.

take care,
Dave

 

[midi]

I have to take migraine meds to do my volunteering. The slightest stress and I'm there. Sometimes just the fear of getting a migraine can cause a migraine. Hopefully you do ok with this transition. We're all rooting for you!

 

[pandora]

It went away a bit....now it is back..UUGGHHH...been awake half the night. I am going to try and go back to sleep!!!!

 

[TLight]

Oh, Dear Pand...........this is a rough road for awhile. We are all here for you..........I hope that you are going to feel less pain very soon.

 

[SunnyBrookFarm]

Pandora -
I'm so sorry your feeling badly. You are under a lot of stress and I'm not sure where you are with the detox - so I'm not surprised you are having trouble with migraines.

My son gets them horribly (always has and then suffered a traumatic brain injury due to an assault that made them much worse). Often, regardless of what they prescribe him (which is limited because he has had seizures) it doesn't help much and he has to simply go to bed and ride it out.

I know it knocks you down and I know personally how not feeling well can heighten your PTSD symptoms. Try to take it easy - let your mom take care of your son as much as possible and allow your body to recover.

I hope you are feeling better soon.

 

[blackemerald1]

Oh Pandora I pray your migraines will be a distant memory soon. I know what you mean when you say migraine. I am so fearful of mine returning and then well when they inevitably do, everyone and everything must stop and the little that I do already is not possible.

I know this is about you, but I want you to know you are not alone as can be seen by all the responses to your 'vent' - and my fear of migraine too is like you.

I cannot take anything for the pain because I am on a cocktail of drugs including Morphine so there is nothing to be done but shut the bedroom door and crawl into bed with the air-conditioning on full blast (it's always hot here).

I am already a 'junkie' waiting for medical treatment for falling backwards 4 metres, ironically after seeing a pain therapist, at the local hospital, who incidentally could not assist me with the conditions I have acquired through PTSD.

When a migraine rolls me, not even the Morphine helps it just makes me vomit as well, so don't be convinced it would help, it doesn't for me.
From my fall, I crushed my lower spine with part of it a cat’s whisker against piercing my spinal chord..

So now I must see a neurosurgeon because any moment it could cut through. But, here we wait 3 or more months for specialists to come to town hence the morphine.

Pandora if there is a little bit of hope you can cling to then hold on tight. You are such a brave person and as previously suggested, allow those close to you to help. I would love that if I had that. Always remember stand tall (when you can) and be gentle to yourself when you fall.
Go well
Kind regards
Blackemerald1