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Hi guys just wanted to check in and say thanks for all your support earlier in the year! I haven't gotten much further along in my understanding of what's going on with me as the last time I went to therapy T triggered me so severely that I can't bring myself to go back or to see anyone else...

And thank you everyone for your replies, it's always great to have support from people who know what's going on in my head because they themselves are going through the same thing :)

The cat is out of the bag, pandora's box is opened, the apple has been eaten, and theres no putting humpty dumpty back together again. It's quite ok @Loner You don't sound like a jerk, it's reality isn't it? And You are so very right! You explained it perfectly here ^^ as much as I wish I could...

I'm currently on the same level I think @Storm-ridden I've had a couple of really good weeks and just when I thought things were looking up... BAM! I'm back in this black hole and it's just getting worse :( I moved out on my own which I though I needed but now I am extremely anxious again and...

Overwhelmed and like its all getting too much? I am on my own in my new place but I still feel like I'm stuck and need to get out...but out of what exactly? I feel like I need to go away...that's what is wrong!! I haven't disassociated in a while and I think I miss it? I want to disassociate!

I have just started a new thread on wanting to go back...I think I'm having a poor me night :(

In the past few months I have gone from being blissfully (to a point) unaware of the trauma I had been thru as a small child... thanx to my amazing mind and it's effective use of disassociation...to having to work hard every day to stay in reality and deal with my feelings and memories in order...

Good for you for not deleting. Out there in the world: batshit crazy. In here: perfectly normal. Lol that's definitely the response I'm sure to get out there! So in here is where It will stay...altho I am guessing I will have to discuss it with my therapist at some point. Sometimes I just...

Welcome! Your sister has an amazing brother and I bet she would die for you also! I'm sorry to hear how you both (and your mother it seems) have endured such trauma, however just sharing your story here shows how strong you are! I too am unsure exactly if I was I fact molested/raped as most of...

Thanx @Pencil I read thru the IFS link that @lucykat posted and found it extremely interesting and comforting as well to know that I'm not alone or 'a freak'! Is this something I should discuss with my T? We already spoke about something like this last week when all of a sudden something she...

@radicalgratitude yes it is quite a bit like that! Thank you

Shit I pressed post before I could chicken out lol

Lol thanx guys, yes I was asleep and in amongst all the helpful information I did manage to have a good giggle! I'm still not quite sure where I fall into in this category? Maybe it is just normal thoughts, I dunno? Here's a bit of my background which may help a little? I thought my recent...

I don't really know where to start but I feel like there is a constant battle inside my head with other 'personalities'. On normal days I can go about my time without much hassle however if I'm having a bad day or if something triggers me I feel like I'm going into battle with myself! Part of me...

Thank you saoir, I have been feeling quite confused as to whether I should try to remember or not, I am thinking I will try to let it go, for now anyway. My therapist told me that I have blocked it out for a reason and when the time is right I will remember? I, like you, have a very blurred...

I went to my therapist last week and I told her of my concerns.. that I have been going of into a far away place or 'off with the fairies' as my family and friends always tell me ever since I can remember. I also told her how I had imaginary friends...this apparently is quite a comin occurrence...

A couple of months ago I stumbled onto this site and ever since then I feel like I have been able to solve a 1000 piece puzzle that I have been working on since I can remember! ...I was diagnosed with PTSD in around September last year after escaping from a very dangerous relationship where my...

I just want to say thank you, so very much to everyone who replied to me the other night! That was one of the biggest meltdowns I have had and it has taken until now for me to fully come out of my dissasociated state. On on hand it was quite scary but in the other I didn't want to come out of it...

Thank you Ayesha...you have no idea how helpful this forum has been for me! I have learnt so much and felt so much more at ease over the last week or 2 as a direct result in having found this site! Everyone one here has been so helpful and nice, and even talked me through one of the hardest...

Yes...I like it when I disassociate! I am almost sure that I am right now. It helps me so I don't have to deal with things. I feel like nothing can worry me or hurt me while I'm like this. I have been sitting in my car on the side of the road for about 6 and a half hours now because of an...

Ps thank you for ur support, I am ok...I just don't want to face reality just yet

I'm still here I can't seem to bring myself to move? I'm not cold it's warm where I live in Brisbane. I forgot I wrote this until now, I must have fallen asleep. I don't have an appt til 17th jan but I think I'm ok till then. I just want to stay here by myself for a bit, I don't want to deal...

Also even tho I feel a bit more with it, I don't want to go anywhere...I want to stay here? I'm a bit confused I think?

I was supposed to be spending New Years with my so called boyfriend. However he still has issues with his ex who has been msging him of late saying she was sorry and wanting to get back together (they were together for 10 years) he keeps telling me that he doesn't love her however all he talks...

Wow I do this like ALL the time! Just the other day I walked around a small discount store for over an hour just to get a sprinkler for the kids as it was a hot day. I have vague memory of people around me but they didn't really have faces? Does that sound stupid? I also felt like they were...