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Honestly, I'm sad I'm still here. And trying not to be too upset that all my crisis contacts were unavailable. I still haven't spoken to my care coordinator and hubby can't reach her either. It's like, I don't want to exist but I know I have to, but there's no interest in helping me from the MH...

I don't have many words right now but I have a few… thank you all for the encouragement.

I tried to call the crisis team but my voice wouldn't work so I text them and left it an hour then text again, they said how can they help and I hate that question because if I knew the answer I wouldn't need them. Now they've asked for my name and dob and I can't give it to them in case hubby...

Another thought just came to me - for me it can also feel invalidating. Like, I'm saying something really difficult to you to try to prevent YOU getting hurt and you're not taking me seriously?? That's where the anger comes in for me. I'm sorry if this is a current situation for you.

Awful, abandoned, alone, and desperate. This happens far too much. I get really agitated and suicidal thinking is worse, to the point it pushed me over once.

Congratulations! :joyful: here's to a wonderful future for you both :hug:

Once again I am at a loss where to post this! :oops: I'm loving the forums, especially being so free to talk without judgement, that's new to me :) I'd really like to ask for some members' advice on posting if possible? In particular I keep reading things I'd like to chip in on, but I keep...

thank you all for insights. i was too in my own world to notice my own sabotage. he's a good man with no brain. i'm very reliant on him and we're not 'balanced'. He's definitely the boss of the house, because we'd be bankrupt and homeless if he wasn't. I'm sorry that I'm not familiar with all...

Apologies if this is muddled. I love my husband dearly, and he loves me. I am lucky. But this is new to both of us and we're struggling to keep afloat. He knows I'm holding back, which upsets him, and upsetting him makes me feel like the worst spouse. I have a friend in hospital after a very...

Thank you all so much for your input. Just knowing that I'm not 'weird' or 'losing it' is very helpful - although the feelings and urges aren't new to me, this is the first time that I've had to acknowledge there's a theme or pattern or reason. I'd never really seen it as SH urges. For me, SH...

I don't really know where this belongs. I'm in a weird place where I can't stop living in the past and in moments that hurt me. But I'm also fighting urges to put myself back in those situations, or in danger of them. Like getting prettied-up all femme and going to the pub and drinking to...

28 years old, genderfluid, broken. Three ways to describe me. I'm also a writer (poet), a spouse, a sibling to an amazing man and - for some reason - I don't care about any of it. Quick background - I was initially diagnosed with schizoaffective in 2012. In 2015 they added borderline pd, and...

Nothing anyone can give me.