May i vent?

[LexyLou]

I tried to call the crisis team but my voice wouldn't work so I text them and left it an hour then text again, they said how can they help and I hate that question because if I knew the answer I wouldn't need them. Now they've asked for my name and dob and I can't give it to them in case hubby finds out. I'm digging in as firmly as I have the energy to do but without much food energy or sleep it's hard. I just want nothingness, or an off switch. It feels like I've ticked all the boxes on what I'm meant to do and come to the end of the list of options.

 

[joeylittle]

Hey - how are you doing now?

 

[LexyLou]

Honestly, I'm sad I'm still here. And trying not to be too upset that all my crisis contacts were unavailable. I still haven't spoken to my care coordinator and hubby can't reach her either. It's like, I don't want to exist but I know I have to, but there's no interest in helping me from the MH team. Hubby's staying home from work for the rest of the week and I have a weird sense of resentment towards him for it.

 

[joeylittle]

but there's no interest in helping me from the MH team. Hubby's staying home from work for the rest of the week and I have a weird sense of resentment towards him for it.

Do you have an idea of where the resentment is coming from?