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Kagamine, I've gotten into this dilemma off and on throughout my life, but never recognized it as a side effect of the PTSD until recently. It happens when I'm overwhelmed with stress. I moved to a new state last March and started seeing a new T later in the summer. My stress levels were so...

Thank you all for the feedback, it's been very insightful and helps me know at least you all understand. I'm still working at it.

Casey, been there, felt that and feeling it again. You are not alone, these feelings are very difficult to overcome but you can overcome them. Rather than focusing on everyone else, try to focus on what you've accomplished, like how far you've come in your job while trying to deal with PTSD...

Get well soon. They say this too shall pass, as hard as it might be. It sounds like you've been through some flashbacks already previously. Just remind yourself that they subsided as you worked through them and these will too.

I've had this happen to me, not sure if it's clinically proven or not, but my T seems to understand it. It is usually when I cannot identify the trigger so I'm stuck in whatever the memory that I can't remember is...if that makes sense. Once I'm able to identify the trigger and process the...

I notice it after. Sometimes I can tell when I'm in it, but I can't change it.

@theotherside I'm sorry to hear you are having such troubles. I too have troubles sleeping due to nightmares, random thoughts, sounds I hear, anxiety etc. however, I can fall asleep early from exhaustion, but I wake up in the middle of the night. My son has heard me crying and getting up and...

So I'm 2 1/2 years into memories surfacing and there isn't enough room to explain all the changes that have taken place in my life. I'm 46 years old and this past summer my T discussed possible hospitalization because the anxiety was so bad and I was being hit by so many outside influences...

Thanks so much for sharing and congrats on getting your life back Clairbear!! Your post had a profound impact on me when I read it this morning, it was exactly what I needed to hear. I was diagnosed in 1988 when I first began therapy and went to weekly individual and group sessions for years...

Bill, I hear you loud and clear, right there myself. Actually laying in bed resting after forcing myself to accomplish a few thugs that have been looming over me today. My therapist just walked through the fact that it it my anxiety crushing me right now, so to hear it from Anthony as well is...

@cupfish I feel exactly as you describe you feel right now. Similar to @FridayJones I too have led a (can't say totally symptom free) but close to symptom free life for the last 14 years. At least I've been able to utilize the tools learned in therapy to manage my triggers and the triggers...

Going through it right now myself. It is a coping mechanism for me brought on by years of sexual abuse starting at the age of 6. I usually don't act upon it unless I'm drinking though. I'm working closely with my therapist and talking to friends about it a lot. Although the shame is almost...

Well said Flyaway. My current round of self hatred does not include physical self harm but other self destructive patterns that if continued, could potentially cost me my job, my reputation and some long time relationships. I don't have a very strong inner voice to stop me because the...

Meadowsweet, you described my exact feelings over the past few months. I feel trapped in one of the longest emotional flashbacks I've ever had. As time passes and my emotions continue, I'm growing more tired everyday, which is making me feel very weak. And, my inner child is definitely...

Meadowsweet, I haven't had to deal with memories for 20 years and I've forgotten what it's like until recently. I experienced a trigger that has brought out the worst memory I ever had, one I never knew about. I was chronically sexually abused by my uncle, starting when I was 6, but this new...

Debbie, thank you so much for the information. I now understand the sacrifices people who have come forward have made and the courage they have to have to do it. Fortunately, my job is not dependent upon favors and we are on opposite sides of the country so it's giving me time to work through...

Thanks for your feedback Arfie, I love you're analogy. It is the first time I heard it in terms of rising higher rather than just peeling away layers. I love the idea that we are rising higher, above our afflictions with every round. I accept your hugs, I'm really in need of them lately...

Mojo, This is my first time into the forum and your post resignatef with me. First of all, congratulations on becoming a mother and to getting clean. These are both MAJOR accomplishments and should be recognized by you as such. Both are extremely difficult and with the stress of everyday...

@crazy8 It's been 20 years since I've had this type of flashback but I have been living in one now for the past 8 months. At first, I didn't recognize what was going on, I just felt crazy and tried to figure out why I would swing from massive panic attacks, woke up every single night...

Chalk up another "me too" for the big 3.

Wow!! You are incredibly courageous!! It sounds like it gave you much needed relief. Congratulations!

I am 45 years old and a sufferer of cPTSD for as long as I can remember. I was first sexually abused at the age of 6 and suffered chronic abuse until the age of 14, with a string of bad relationships following. I was officially diagnosed when I was 20 years old when I started counseling after...