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My husband and I are in seperate bedrooms due to my nightmares, but we share one of the rooms on weekends and sometimes one night during the week, depending on how much sleep I average. The less sleep I get, means more nightmares and more issues sharing a bed. I am celibate but not by choice...

I craft. I crochet, quilt, embroider, tailor, or even knit. Crochet is my go to. I focus on counting my stitches and the feel of the yarn, the pattern of colors and such. I agree though with others that this is highly individualized. I am moving soon and plan to have a half acre vegie garden...

I am in my third marriage and we have been together 5 years. I did not have PTSD until last fall. He has his own issues and sometimes that makes us unable to be there for each other, in fact I end up being there more for him than him for me. But I did not marry him for me, I married him for him...

Thank you for posting this. I have been feeling the same, but on a much smaller scale. I have hours now that have no anxiety, it feel weird and scary. It is nice to know others have this. I remember when beating the anxiety was the only thing I thought about, now that I am on a winning side, I...

I am in a trauma group for the last week and next week. Thursday a trauma specializing psychiatrist, stated that PTSD was curable. It would take 2 years with medication and therapy, but 5 years without. I find this about as believable as the old school peddler's seller snakes oil as cure all...

@Florian7051 If you are having those thoughts please go get help. The ER at the military hospital here would easily hold you for a few days if you wanted, to ensure you were ok. I think you need more aid than a forum can give, if you are starting to question whether or not you are safe from...

@keifer You are completely right about the VA being a fight. I also love the fact that your can lose more than your life for your country. Congratulations on being able to retire!! It is wonderful your command is so supportive!

I cant answer your question on whether to stay or walk, only you can. My tidal wave of ptsd came last summer and almost drowned my last September. Mine is also not combat related. I will tell you that I wont rate a med board as my issues are not considered a disability. Its more than just...

I believe you are worthy of the Purple Heart. Its is not awarded but earned. It is earned by injury or death from war or peace keeping actions. So whomever told you, you would disgrace it, is ignorant. The Purple Heart is not a traditional medal but instead very few can obtain it, its...

It was told to me on here but I can not remember who coined it. It was in a reply to my trauma diary. The waters do recede and you can make it. It sure doesn't feel like it when its happening though. I am beginning to think my tidal wave has cost me way more than my career, its possible wiped...

Animal, I find the animosity towards you intimidating. I am a numbers person, very rational and logical. This causes me to rationailse my feelings and minimize them often in order to supress them and not face them. Do you do this since your so factual? I also agree that grounding can be seen as...

When I started posting on this forum I was begining the upswing from where you are. PTSD comes as a tidal wave, knocking you off your feet, and destroying most of everything in its path. It covers you, surrounds you and tries its best to drown you.When the tidal wave recedes, and it will, it...

I did not sleep last night.

My way out of the pit is a wide variety of things, none of which work all the time. First is to focus on the little sucesses and happy things. I usualy greet people with 'It's a Beautiful Day", regardless of the weather, because the weather is free to act as it will, it is no controlled by...

I despise the saying "What's good for the Goose is good for the Gander" So am I the goose or are you? Because if it is me then you should do what is good from my point of view and respect my space requirements. If the Goose is you, then I am screwed. I have a huge personal space boundary and...

I was startled awake. No iea what woke my, but I come up swinging and ready to kill. I feel aggressive today, not assertive but aggressive. Ready to put people in thier place and force them to respect my boundaries or leave. One problem, this aggressive attitude and especially any behavior is...

I slept deep, not moving for about 5 or so hours. More than I have gotten any other night so far this week. Did not dream that I know of and woke up looking to fight.

what am I feeling today? Blue deeeeeeppppp blue outline in the bright red and yellow stripes of anxiety. skin crawling, burning, face flushing anxiety combined with a hefty dose of hopelessness.

My hated comments. "You were fine yesterday" 'See you can do it" in referrence to leaving my house, as if it did not take me over a day to plan the excursion and prepare myself and the whole day after at least to recover. "But you were fine doing this before" In referrence to conducting...

Horrible. I have not slept well in days, probably why I have not been on here.

I have tried every ssri with no luck. I am on pamelor I think right now it helps with the depression but doesn't touch the anxiety. I am also on propanol to get rid of my burning crawling skin, trazedone to sleep. I am on others but they don't treat this. I just started my med journey 3 months...

I get very anxious about leaving my home. I work 5 days a week, and luckily have not lost my job as of yet. But then I cant just call in sick either as I am military. I have had a few days off due to the holidays and I find its always worse after a extended period in my safe zone. Today I have...

I definitely feel like I have lost part of me to this. Some days I feel I merely a shadow of who I was before, and some days I dont feel so far from myself. Unfortunately for me Its more of the shadow feeling than the other.

Its really nice to know there are more people than just me out there that go through this. I too wished I was in the hospital where people could see. I also wish it could all be made better. I would wonder if we did not feel this way. I am sorry you are having a struggle today as well. One thing...

I hope so too, but my hope is running out lol. I am trying to remain upbeat as this all came to head just a mere 6 months ago. I remember what my life was like before I snapped before the tsunami. Sometimes I wish I would forgot so I would not know how much I have lost.