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Dharmagirl, what is destabilization with ptsd? I have not heard of this before.

Omg! I totally can empathize. What horrible people, to say that to you. I also, have been treated like that. By my mother, brother, the church, my entire family, cousins, aunts, etc. It hurts, beyond hurting. I had, to finally cut the thorns, out of my life. The thorns, are all the people, that...

I am in the same boat you are in. Similar past experiences too. Wow! I am so sorry, for what you have been through. It is possible to get past it. I am doing it now. It helps to have positivity, and a lot of loving support. It's so hard to change the patterns. Tell yourself that you can. You are...

No. She is your mother. My mother is a horrible mother. I still love her. I just personally feel, for my own life, that I am better off without her. You will always love your mother. Whatever way you choose to look at your past, is up to you. Sounds like you went through so much. Understanding...

Me too. With past therapists, and with my therapist now. I absolutely need to know, I can trust her. I get so nervous, tense, and shut down. Even if its something that wouldn't probably bother others. I don't know. My last session, she looked at the stupid clock, like four freaking times. Pissed...

Oh, I just love it!! That is probably one of the most important things in my life that I love too. ;) Walking, and soaking in the beauty of nature. I love taking my dog with me. It is so important for me, to have beauty still around me. Helps with the trauma. Glad you enjoy it too. ;)

I too, hear you. I suffer with cptsd. My knee is also having problems. I'm sorry that you are too. I am so angry. Some days it is unbearable. I just drop and cry. Writing, singing, playing with my dog, seems to help. I am not able to work at this time, so this is extremely hard. It hurts and I...

I too was verbally, psychologically, emotionally, and physically abused. I am glad you are on this forum ;) I haven't been a member for long. I have found an extreme amount of true support, and lots of insite. I hope you do too! Welcome

What you are dealing with is not easy. You are beating yourself up. What kind of therapist tells a person to keep pursuing him? It is not your responsibility. You say you love him, and he is who you view yourself with? Well, to me, it takes action from you and him. Not just you. I hear how much...

Yes. I too have issues with this. I now try to tell myself, I deserve it. It is others choices. They want to use it as a leverage, it is on them. You sound like a kind soul. You deserve their love. Enjoy it. Tell yourself that you matter. ;)

I will take a chance and choose to make my own decisions. I will spend the extra money on hair products, because I too, deserve the best. I will treat, and live for myself, just like I do, for others. Great thread. I'm so loving this idea. Thank you. ;)

As I was reading this, my face streamed with tears. I too, have been through domestic violence. I also, have your symptoms. Listen to me please, you are a strong woman. He wants you to believe you are weak. He wants you to believe all his lies. You see, my ex did it to me. I went from a warrior...

I get frustrated too. Mad at having to think about it, explain myself, or have anyone pitying me.

Wow! I am so sorry. That is a lot to deal with. And I'm sorry for what your friend even said to you. Sounds like you are terrified of the unknown. I understand how that can be. Is there no way you can stay with somebody else until the guys head home? If not, I hope the night goes by fast and you...

Yes. I do have a great voice. I also write songs and poetry, to help heal from mine, as well.;) I've been singing since I was five. So do you have a question, or what is it exactly, that your looking for?

I was domestically abused and lived with a monster, that was able to almost kill me inside and out. I fought him in court and won. Then I met another sick person. Who was a severe alcoholic, turned out to harbor so much anger. He grabbed my throat in a argument over drinking, and he asked me if...

Good advice macca;)

You are ok. I totally get what you mean. I have social anxiety too. I can't even think to say anything. I feel like I am freaking out. Like I want to run, hide, cry, bury myself under a rock. I also know, what its like to just wanting to be crazy and not have memories that haunt me. I am sorry...

I am better at setting boundaries. It took me taking a leap of faith. I fought through the anxious feelings, that attached to it. Imo. It made sense to me. If I can respect others, then why the heck could I not receive the same. To me, people who don't honor my heart, they are not worth the...

Hmm. Sounds like where you live, isn't safe. You are constantly triggered, having to explain yourself, and exhausted. Imo. I am sorry for your pain. I too, know what you mean. I have hit myself, burned myself with ciggarettes, and numbed myself with pills, dope, alcohol.. It was a cry for help...

Yes. Until I started challenging myself and facing my inner child, I felt nothing. I was so afraid of rejections. My medications, also seemed to numb my emotions. It's very common. You are not alone. ( hugs)

The fear that I went through, and all the years of trauma, drug abuse, and not being believed, has caused me to separate from myself, and the world. I can't remember movies, conversations, lack ambition. Went from a bold, out going personality, to detaching myself. Numb, and withdrawn. I am now...

@askata7, I know what you mean. I was told I was out of the will of god, and that is why horrible things happen to me, in my life. If I wore my hair up on one side, I was a harlot. If I wore rings on any fingers, but the one by my pinky, I was channeling demons. It was a cult. I began...

I can relate too. I take amitriptoline. It helps. Also trazodone has helped in the past with severe anxiety, depression, and insomnia. I took that when I was battling cancers etc. Now, what I do is, listen to peaceful music, birds chirping, waterfalls, anything soothing. Running my hands under...

(((((Hugs))))) your story, touched my heart. You are not alone. Find someone that can relate to you, where you are. A support group. Plus, on this forum, there are lots of people that do care.