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Are you trying too hard? You are going through a challenging period that you have deemed worthy of your resources...but it means your resources are running on low. Now is the time to allow your energy to go where you have decided to and choose minimal items for your limited remaining energy...

I have a strong freeze response which seems to match what you're describing. A clear trigger then I freeze, can't move, brain shouts internally to the person who is triggering me to stop (typically not their fault and they couldn't know). My breathing changes to be invisible (which means...

I agree with digger. Trust is earned, a nanny can't earn your trust without the chance. I don't know your trauma but maybe it's relevant to your lack of trust. Mine was childhood sexual abuse. Looking back I know it impacted my ability to trust people with my child. If I could have changed...

I've got nothing constructive to say. You need a break. I'm not sure how you can get one, but you need one. One thing that helped me (but it sounds really wrong) was that I tried to get the best crying photo I could. It gave me a break by changing my perspective for a few minutes. I've met...

Maybe write it and a few days after you wrote it read it again and consider if sharing it will help or hinder you and your recovery. But...if the process of writing it sends your recovery backward then stop. You could also write two statements, one from eg 3months ago when your symptoms were...

People (normals) forget things under stress, it's just that "normals" wouldn't likely find the your er event as stressful as we would. But, I'm glad they took your injury seriously.

I'm 40ish and count me in. It's partly after exploring (and failing) for years and years at finding medical solutions that I took the plunge to start trauma therapy. All my problems are still present but they are far less debilitating than they were a couple of years ago. For example i can...

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Thought we might :hug: My T tried to explain the "why" of the trigger to me once but I didn't get it and due to costs I've had to take a break from therapy.

I wanted to say that being misunderstood is a trigger for me, particularly when I have done everything "right" and the misunderstanding is because of others overly quick conclusions. Your thread was and is very clear. Other people reading in other irrelevant facts is on them. I just want to...

I wouldn't ask for "how" to take a day off before you do it. I'd learn your rights (eg can you take 1 day off without a medical certificate and what are the rules, eg do you have to call in the morning to tell them). Then, if you can, just take the day and claim a physical manifestation of...

Some workplaces are quieter than others. I got lucky with mine. What helped me... - taking breaks from people/areas - preemptive self soothing - headphones or earmuffs reduced the impact of the noise - reminding myself eg "it's just John, he is always noisy, he is just as safe as before"

I love your definition of normal. Now I know what to aim for.

@Justmehere it hadn't even occurred to me to ever blame or hold accountability to my abusers previous victims, so much so I didn't even think of that point when reading the opening post. So I agree with you wholeheartedly.

I reported as a child, I remember going to the police station etc. and I was told he was convicted. I rang the police station recently and apparently there is no record of me reporting, me going or his conviction. According to the police it never happened. So, with this completely negative...

Isolation and independence is my go-to, so I understand intellectually that my reality map is off. So...while I enjoy being fulfilled by others, I don't want to need them or rely on them. Similar to you, I've just been let down too much. So I'll ask for help (just in case), but I won't believe...

I'm sorry for the delay in replying, my phone had a meltdown. I think we agree but had a miscommunication. You can't give this to yourself because you don't know how. You don't know how because it wasn't modeled to you enough (or at all) as a child. I don't think you "should" be able to give...

Do you listen to yourself? Do you meet yourself where you are? Do you deny or hide parts of yourself to yourself? I personally believe that a person needs things from others usually because they can't/don't give it to themselves.

I saw a phrase I loved the other day. "Don't judge me by the chapter you walked in on". Did your T help you find connection. Do you know of examples of what caused you to feel connection. I'm probing in case it might help, but as always there is no pressure to respond.

Interesting. Mine were time based. (Now I'm much better I can resolve them more easily and quickly.) What does connection and security look like to you. How can I help you obtain it. (Assuming you're comfortable sharing).

Somewhere inside you, you know this will pass. Try to hold onto that knowledge. When I was at my worst, I tracked my bouts of crap and worked out that my cycle was typically five days. Knowing that the current crap would end eg Sunday, really helped me get through.

I'm not tech savvy. I can't put an image in of a task tracker. Sorry.

Absolutely. For me the trick was to use them regularly before activated...but that doesn't help you now. I did find that some helped once activated but their value was far more subtle and it took much longer. This it was easy to get frustrated with them and "feel" they weren't working...

Only to be helpful.... Do you have a list of coping strategies. If not consider writing a list. From the list consider creating a task tracker (I'll look for a link to one). Then you can track which ones you do each day. I did this and realized that I was doing less of them, and less often than...

Self soothing both regularly and premeptively seems to have resolved my anxiety. I took sertraline while I learnt it, and it took a long time to see tangible results but for me it has been such a profound, yet seemingly simple solution.