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Thank you FridayJones! So what works best for you is taking a little bit at a time, stopping, continuing, and stopping? I can definitely see how that would help. I want to move past the severely negative associations that I have with touch so I keep pushing myself over the edge and hoping that...

Hi everyone. I haven't been on here for awhile which for me is always a big accomplishment as it means that everything is tolerable in my life. Nonetheless, I still missed all of you :). I'm coming to accept that the sexual assault that I endured when I was 14 by my dad will always be a part of...

It's been a long time since I've been on this forum and that's mostly because I was doing pretty well. Fluoxetine has been doing wonders with my brain and I've been on a great track to transferring to a state college with a scholarship. Then came last week; I could feel my brain changing. I just...

9 days ago I began taking fluoxetine 10mg and I've noticed a huge (better) difference in my mood and I've been able to sleep much better. I'm functioning very well and I feel more awake during the day. I currently have a 2.5 month supply because I was taken off my insurance recently, but...

So two or three months ago I had enough: it had been a particularly rough month and between hormones, an overwhelming schedule, and several other factors I decided it was time to see my doctor. I went and before I could utter any words past "I think I'm depressed". My doctor got onto his laptop...

He was my abuser, but I suppose I developed Stockholm syndrome or something. It's so complicated for me and my brain to understand how the father I loved so much also caused so much harm. It feels like two different people in one

I got an email from my dad today. "Subject: love you. I hope all is well and you are happy." I don't know how I feel about this. I've been yearning to hear from him, but nightmares filled with fear and regret have been consuming my nights lately. I miss him, but I still don't understand how...

I'd take the cd outside, wear some gloves and safety glasses and obliterate the cd with a crowbar or any the item of your choice. It's helped me release pent up anger and frustration this past summer. The one time I've ever had any sort of extreme episode from a movie was watching super 8. I'd...

I'm really really frustrated that I can't share it :/ I can't find any way to put the link here because it keeps linking to a poem I didn't write. I'm really frustrated right now

Wow that's totally not mine haha. Umm...I'm gonna have to check that link out

Last year I wrote this stupid story for class that ended up being the thing that triggered warning lights in my teacher. I hate it now because of all the stuff I had to go through because of it, but before taht happened it was precious to me since it was like my way of sharing my story. Anyways...

Oh I forgot all about Lilo's big sister. Love her!!! Only bad thing is, last time I watched lilo and stitch it ended up somehow being a big trigger and left me in a pretty bad state after :shifty:still amazing movie though!

Probably why I love Astrid from HTTYD series :)

Hahaha @Solara all I can picture is a mix of wonderwoman and one episode of Futurama that I saw a few years ago (sorry I can't even remember the name). Disney should really make a really tough and edgy woman with feminist ideals. I mean brave and frozen are on the right track, but I found them...

OK I loved all of your responses!!!! :) There's not much space so they just want very general information and, no worries @Chava the goal is for her to not be finding the prince be the main theme. I really like these though. I want to go down the empowerment route...so I'll see what happens...

Alright, I really don't know if this is the right place to post this thread, but if not then I trust the awesome moderators to take care of it ;). So I'm going to enter a scholarship contest which I normally try to avoid, but this looked too cute. You have to create a Disney type princess (make...

I don’t know if I can answer everything, but I’ll try: 3) It sets the tone for me, that’s for sure. I feel like I’m nothing more than just an object during sex rather than an actual human being. Arousal and violence have become synonymous. 4) The assault actually produced a lot of anger in...

I just want to write this to let you know that I am planning on answering as many of these questions as I can tomorrow but I'm going to sleep. Until then I'm sending lots of hugs :hug:

But I've been trying for years to get rid of this stupid hate and it was working I was getting better until last March when my mom took control of the situation and forced me to speak to pastors and therapists about what had happened to try convincing me to hate my father. And after so long of...

Thank you to everyone who has responded. I was going to respond individually to your posts this morning, but with the network down I couldn't and ended up looking my responses so I'll just summarize everything here. I do have issues. It's so much more than my reaction to one text and it's more...

My stress cup is very close to the brim for the past few weeks thanks to flashbacks, nightmares, fears..all of the typical stuff that users here I'm sure are familiar with so I'm trying to avoid any form of uneeded stress (the good and the bad). That's resulted in me isolating myself from all...

After hearing so many good reviews from friends and finally seeing it on here I finally broke down and started watching it. Now I'm even binge watching it while working haha. Love it

@FridayJones Thank you :). That thought keeps popping up in my mind today. I struggle a lot with the decision I made ove cutting off contact, but I haven't been struggling today that's for sure. I'll make sure to keep these in mind for the future

Thank you guys for the support and kind words. It was a comfort to read this morning. I'm doing better now, but little things keep triggering flashbacks which I try my best to ignore. @shimmerz thankfully I love my job so that's my safe place and when I drive home I always stop at this really...

I just woke up and I'm in a panic right now. I had a really, really bad nightmare and it was too surreal for comfort. I was going to one of the restaurants in my town with my aunt that I consider a "red" zone because the chances of my dad being there are very high. I was waiting in line to order...