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My largest and first trauma ended almost 4 years ago, with the divorce of my parents and my Mother finally having the ability to rescue her and I from Hell. Before this Summer, let's roughly say March/early April, I had done enough recovery to actually have OVERCOME the night terrors, the...

I'm so sorry to hear this...a nightmare on top of this, that's a rough night :/ Any ways you know of to help calm your mind and relax?

My most horrific seem simple, but they weigh so heavily on my soul. It's a setting which could only take place if I never left my abuser(s), one that only could happen in that timeline. But I'm happy about it. Oblivious to the damage they are causing on my soul, completely ignorant to how they...

It can be a number of things, and I'm drawing on personal experience here. First is the stress is EXHAUSTING. Being triggered, worries, or having you mind loop end on end just wears you out. I can wake up, and in the span of a shower after a night terror, be ready for bed again. Stress...

For me it's just time. Time spent sleeping...smiling...wishing...being happy. Time I was painting a grin on while 'having fun' and dying inside. Time I wanted to be talking. Time I want back. At 21 I shouldn't be missing 14-15 years of memory, and have only had months, IF THAT, of abuse free time.

I stick with the mentality that everyone is dealing with and experiencing their own reality. It's exceptionally hard to truly see events from anothers' perspective, especially going from a non-sufferer to a sufferer. It's hard not to be angry when it happens, and I'm entirely guilty of snapping...

Wow...I had to read that multiple times to actually get it...you're completely right. I hadn't even considered that. I wouldn't go as far as to consider them rapists though, abusers yes, but I never felt raped. I didn't want to but I wasn't held down or forced, I chose to perform those actions...

I've never acted on Self Harm impulses or worse ones...and I never will. I won't cause permanent damage for what I know is a temporary issue. I don't have a Therapist, and I refuse to have one after my experience with them. She facilitated the abuse my ex handed to me for months, and I know some...

Whenever I'm under severe stress or triggered from something related to my sexual trauma, I get a massive urge to mutilate my genitals. It feels like they were the cause of this pain...this mental pain and the chaos in my head from this instance of abuse. If I never had them, if they were gone...

Yes. Immensely. It can be several times in an hour, it just happens. And it always seems horrible timed and comes with no provocation.

Welcome to the forums! No need to be scared at all...you're in very good company. Everyone here is a sufferer or a supporter, this is safe place to express or ask for help, and be given help and support by people who care and know what it's like! I hope to see you around :)

It's incredibly difficult explaining a trigger to someone who doesn't know what they can do to us, so the first question I have is; does you husband have a decent understanding of what PTSD does? What Triggers really are? It's going to be impossible for him to be able to associate simple...

Welcome to the forums! This site is an amazing place of healing, and it gives back just as much as you put in! Don't be afraid to speak up in chat, post about issues, or ask for help! We're all fighting the beast within and it's a lot easier when someone has your back :)

What's your current plan look like anthony? For guys, ahtletic physique building can go hand in hand with weight loss with incredible ease!

Diets don't work. What DOES work is giving a lifestyle change enough time to really show results. Start small and add healthy habits as you feel ready and your body feels appropriately ready. Realistic, long term weight loss is 0.5-1 lbs a week. That's sustainable and a rate that won't freak...

Not at all, I catch tons of shit for being healthy at restaurants. Weigh Loss is an emotional and mental journey as much as it is a physical one, so don't feel guilty at all. Do what's best for you, and don't regret it!

I'll have to find something...I don't know anything off the top of my head haha. But it's not a bad idea at all!

I did the same about a year after my parents split and I moved away from my Dad to live with my Mom in a safe place. It was scary...and tough, but in the moment my mind cleared and I found the right words. I asked him straight out if he knew what he did to me, he said no, but 'I'd love to talk...

I hope you do! I'm curious to hear about this Technique!

That's good to know...but overwhelming in what it currently means for me..damn.

These aren't quite as strong as what I'd consider hardcore triggers for myself, I figured there was some term or word for it I didn't know, but if they fall into the same category that's good to know, now I can at least start somewhere.

We often talk about dissociation; when you become detached from reality, but what association? When an object, action, or place becomes so deeply ingrained with the memory or feeling of past abuse they become synonymous. When something had been tainted so heavily your mind instantly paths you...

Without insurance I'm handling this by myself, and have for all but about 3 months of the 3 1/2 years I've been out of abuse. For the while I was seeing someone she made things so much worse...I have no trust or faith in that system. I'm done with it.

I'm on Gaba Seed and Valerian Root, and even that hardly stems the torrent of fear. It's more memories than triggers...but one leads to the other. The dark is also nasty for me, a lot of my most corrupted memories and worst pain were in the dark, and by a cruel twist of fate I can't sleep at ALL...

I've come to terms with Nightmares...the waking up shivering, crying so deeply my chest aches, beginning my day in a numb fog...it's been long enough that I can cope with those symptoms, horrid as they may be. But the one thing I've never been able to even make a dent in is the fear of that...