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Okay, so I need advice, I previously posted about there being "2 of me", I spoke of violet who is , as I've come to find out, one of my alters. But violet is not what I thought she was (rather who I thought she was) and now there are more. First I spoke of violet being this free spirited...

Thank you everyone for your amazing responses. I will work very hard at keeping violet under control. I feel like she is the reckless teen/child I never got to be. But the actual "me" is the damaged adult with PTSD fighting a internal battle every day. I will admit , it is extremely freeing to...

Thank you for your responses! While I am aware that it happens, I have no recollection of certain things that happen while I'm violet. Such as conversations, how I ended up in places, or how I got into certain clothing. It really concerns me as I know violet is reckless. Hopefully my...

i need help. I've recently noticed that it's almost like 2 different people are living in my body. There is ME, who is very anxious, has frequent flashbacks, and hates social interaction. Then there is "other me" I've named her violet. She is outgoing, spontaneous , she smokes pot, drives to...

myself and my doctor have decided that doing an inpatient treatment for a week or so would be beneficial to my healing (I've had suicidal tendencies) , I am very nervous about this. My anxiety is super high and I feel like I'm being selfish. I have a small child at home, who needs her momma...

Thank you all for your replys. My daughter is 11 months old.. Im going to give in patient a chance... I just hope this is the right choice.

Today, during my session I told my t I was experiencing suicidal thoughts, he suggested that maybe in patient treatment would be a good idea for a week or so. I was opposed to the idea and now I am home. How can I be an inpatient with a small child at home? I can't leave my boyfriend at home for...

I'll bring it up to him...my father was in my life for the first 10 years of it he was an alcoholic, and he was my main abuser. After the first ten years he was in and out of my life for 4 years and then in 2012 he died.. I've always looked at my friends dads and have been extremely jealous over...

ive seen my t only a handful of times..but already I have created this emotional attachment to him, as if he was a father figure or some kind of protector. It feels wrong... But I feel like I need to tell him I just don't know how to say it without sounding like some kind of creep. I'm 18, he's...

My fiancé has found out before, he thinks I've stopped. He really does not understand my need to harm. He has never been under such crippling pain and unimaginable depression that has made him feel the need to find such an outlet. It's very awkward to talk to him about it... He loves and...

It's not the loneliness, it's the hurt and depression and the flashbacks and the night terrors, I just never get a moment, where I am in control, and while I self harm, I'm the one causing the hurt. I'm in control of what I do it that moment. And I get some relief for a few minutes afterwards...

I can't go a day without it. It's all I think about (besides my daughter). Once my baby is in bed, and I'm alone, it's just me and my tools. It's peace, and blissful chaos , it's insane but so, effective... I don't know what to do. My t asks me every week if I've sh since we last spoke and...

You are so brave, and it sounds like you are handling this better than I ever could. If my t left without warning or if I went in on Friday he told me that was our last session, I think I'd just curl up right there and bawl my Eyes out. But you're handling this! You've got this! You will be ok...

I just emailed my T (which felt wrong for some reason) and told him I wasn't quite comfortable just yet with haveing someone else in with me. I love my mom, and I don't want her to see me like that for as long as I can help it..

Also, thank you very much for your reply, you were very informative!! :)

I have been a groomer for 7 years now, so I am very well aware of dog breeds and temperaments, along with need for exercise, so those are not big factors for me, also, in Canada as far as I know, vet bills are covered for service dogs, the only thing the owner is required to buy is food ( as far...

I have decided that it would be extremely beneficial for me to have service dog to help me get through my day to day life. I've contact some organizations , but with no reply as of yet. I was just wondering if any of you have service dogs, and how you went about applying for one and if it was a...

My mother has not yet fully witnessed me in a flashback/dissociative episode, I'm 18 years old and I've only recently been facing all this. My psychiatrist suggested that my mother sit in on one of my sessions just to get an idea of what's happening and how she can help. I'm very close with my...

@katz I know!! , it took me a long time to realize that other families didn't break dishes when they were frustrated, or when other parents simply said " now, *insert name* we talked about this behaviour and we don't like it, please stop." When my father would simply smack me in the face and...

***I wasn't sure where to put this ***My father was one of my abusers. For 10 years he abused me. Hitting, kicking, beatings until I wet myself. He was an alcoholic, and all of these attacks would take place while he was either highly intoxicated, or sober and looking for a drink. He was an...

Tomorrow, I have an appointment with my psychiatrist. I love my psychiatrist, he's so gentle and caring and he is excellent with trauma. Anyway, on Monday, in his office I froze. COMPLETELY. I was skin picking on my fingers which he picked up as a sign that I needed to SH .So, he ran and got me...

yes , he's my psychiatrist, and he is a psychiatrist who has specialized in trauma. Psychiatrists prescribe meds yes, but they do a lot more than that. And thank you everyone for kind of giving me a different view of all of this. I'm not in a "rush" to talk about my trauma, it's just that I...

I've seen my psychiatrist a couple times now, and all we seem to do is talking about grounding techniques, he has a very small understanding of my trauma, and we haven't really touched on it. I feel like I need to address it, lay it out for him so he knows what he's dealing with so then I can...

Thank you all for the responses! I feel terrible for those of you who have to wait 2-3 weeks in between sessions, I wouldn't cope well, at all. My last appointment was yesterday. My next appointment is Friday, I might ask to keep it on a twice a week biases, but I really don't want to seem needy.

so far I've been meeting with him once a week, because for me, a lot happens in a week. but I'm just curious to know how often you meet with your T? I like that it's a consistent once a week meeting, and I feel very safe in his office so I enjoy going to meet with him, and I hope it doesn't...