I don't want you to think I'm uncaring saying that the best thing about this site when I came, was after all the jibberish from doctors and therapists that really didn't know squat about PTSD at the time, and screwed me up more than I already was, hopefully you've already learned that the...
I think for most of us, even if only one incident was at the root of it, the causes of the manifestation are exponential by the time anyone sees the light and stops adding fuel to the fire. This is really about the only safe place I know now.
@Friday : I hope it's as encouraging for you as it is for me seeing that I'm apparently not the only person who pays cash as much as possible. In my case to avoid the invariable reaction from "strangers" seeing that the spelling of my name looks like it should be pronounced death. I mean...
The very reason I gave up on them after the last one actually (and hopefully mocking) quoted in a report that I didn't have a real problem with PTSD anymore. (It had been awhile since the nice police officers took me in for an assessment).
I think if mine referred to me by name more than once on the first occasion and only the two of us were in the room, I'm not really sure what I'd be thinking or saying, but from experience probably wouldn't be returning :)
I might be inclined to ask why.
I'm just guessing that you might be in Canada and if so (maybe if not too) recommend looking into the possibility of walk-in mental health clinics. I completely understand your apprehension and although my experience was quite some time ago, that was the best answer for me (in Ontario). The...
I'm sorry if all I have to say is that "friend" sounds passive-aggressive and reminds me of many past acquaintances that feel better about themselves by covertly being toxic when it's least expected, or needed.
If you're interested I watched an excellent video on you tube last night that...
Can I just say that I completely understand the reason some of us, (me anyway), might come across like one. It's hard not to after so many alleged professionals condemn in reports that one needs a medical dictionary to comprehend that in fancy words they've said they didn't believe a word you...
I've got to say that I completely agree as apparently many others do now. Apparently as more and more people have had difficulties recovering from the psychological damage they can do, it's really eye opening with all there is on the internet about them and I recommend everybody take a look...
@littleoc
Pleased to know that then littlesister.
I'm the last person to be a born again and sermon anyone on the evils of alcohol, or allege taking 12 steps when it's only 8 steps to falling off the edge improves the quality of life. (Sorry this doesn't seem to have means to edit after...
@littleoc
I hope it isn't offensive that I'm thinking soon I might refer to you as littlesister.
After reading your post again, I missed the lung problem before.
I recently finished one that kept recurring for over a year and remember quite well experiencing all the anxiety that you expressed...
Mind if I intervene and suggest that you tell your boyfriend about this site and see if he's interested in free help for now, as opposed to people only trying to help you? I'm just being pragmatic and won't judge anyone based only on one side of issues after all the crap I went through as the...
And when looking for what personal triggers that might not be as obvious as others, thinking of whatever "moral injuries" may have been incurred as the result of maybe one initiating incident, or in other cases several, might help understand why the condition was able to manifest in so many...
@littleoc
Thanks for the update. I'm happy to have helped with what sounds like all you needed was an outside opinion for more confidence addressing it.
@littleoc
Without knowing more about the past "home" situation and whether or not returning is a viable option it's a little intangible and difficult to help brainstorm.
All I can do is sympathize and maybe agree that it sounds like you're getting screwed around and taken advantage of for...
For whatever help it might be, you seem to have good common sense. Whenever something like that happens I eventually remember to think about is the same as above. If it isn't a dire emergency, (that if it was likely someone else would be attending to), or one of the many unlikely possibilities...
@Lionheart777
Just so you know, I equate that to when my own doctor finally blew his cover not so much by telling me I just had to accept that I have bipolar disorder, but more that all the stories I kept telling about the work I did for the government were completely factitious.
The particular...
@Lionheart777
Speaking of triggers from a movie, the last one I remember was from watching A Beautiful Mind. It caught me so off guard when Chris Plummer told Russell Crowe that his job with the government was all in his schizophrenic mind and he had to be committed, I almost destroyed my...
Sorry if my answer to number 2 was to self-exile to Asia seven years ago. I don't recommend that but if it's of any solace it was after enough of all the "difficulties with the law I had encountered all my life" (that I was suddenly having trouble comprehending after around 24 years in varying...
Just to reinforce nowhere, take about 3 copies of your resume unless it's a one on one and then one will do. Rehearse greeting the person or people and making eye contact while you hand them a copy and you might be pleasantly surprised with the outcome. You're in essence dealing with the fear of...
@KwanYingirl
I don't want to come across as anything but interested and caring here, but if I believe I really have anything but PTSD and those other disorders I'm supposed to have too which I'm told are inherent, I'm sure I'd also still feel continually numb. After too many misinterpretations...