terrified of seeking help.

[Abstract]

Hi and welcome. Is it because they think you are a present real threat to yourself? The other reason can be that they feel the backlash of treating you means you need more support than doing it out on your own. ?

What is your biggest fear of being hospitalized? You say you fear speaking about your situation. Do you want to explain that more? The day to day symptoms and stuff you are living with at present?

Remember hypervigilance really messes with our perception of threat.

 

[Strugglingsaks]

Hi and welcome. Is it because they think you are a present real threat to yourself? The other reason can be that they feel the backlash of treating you means you need more support than doing it out on your own. ?

What is your biggest fear of being hospitalized? You say you fear speaking about your situation. Do you want to explain that more? The day to day symptoms and stuff you are living with at present?

Remember hypervigilance really messes with our perception of threat.

hey, thanks ..
yeah they do think im going to harm myself i suppose since im suicidal
i have extreme panic attacks i usually faint from, dissociate and self harm, the whole world has become a scary place with cruel habitants and if im not high i cant even make it on the train in the morning... no sleep just has to be the cherry on top.

 

[Abstract]

If you think about it logically for a second (i'm not saying you should do hospitalisation as I am not you) then on the one side we have:
possibility of suicide, terror, drugs, dissociation, panic, isolation etc.

On the other hand:
these but with less possibility of suicide and the possibility of change.

There may be third options though. Help without hospitilisation

Don't let the hypervigilence rule your decisions. It really fries our perspective. Always wish I could slip into a non traumatised brain for just a second when making a decision to try to see the lay of the land more clearly.

Sleep is very NB. I now accept.

 

[Freida]

I sometimes think that actually getting help was scarier than the original trauma. But. I was falling apart, suicidal, no longer functioning in the real world. I was in a place where it wasn't safe to not get help. So I had to make a tough decision -- was I really going to spill my guts to someone about what had happened? What would that mean about me? I prided myself on being tough and strong and able to handle anything -- and I was losing it. So there was a huge sense of failure.

But I did it. I made the call, I made the appointment. For the first 6 months or so I shook so hard in the waiting room I thought I would puke. It was not easy. But I took it as a challenge -- I could do this just like I had done every other goal in my life. And it has been worth it. Completely and totally worth it. It's not always easy, but the changes in my life and my thinking have made my life so much better overall.

You can do this. You have to be brave to live with ptsd -- this is just one more opportunity to show yourself how brave you really are.

 

[EveHarrington]

Since this is an international forum, it oftentimes helps to know what country someone is in in order to the best advice.

I could say a lot, but if you’re not in the USA it could be useless advice. The same goes for trying to soothe you by giving examples of good experiences with seeking help.

 

[jade53]

I'm just guessing that you might be in Canada and if so (maybe if not too) recommend looking into the possibility of walk-in mental health clinics. I completely understand your apprehension and although my experience was quite some time ago, that was the best answer for me (in Ontario). The therapists in them did not have the authority to detain or commit anyone and a person was free to walk out at any time.

 

[chipman]

21, csa survivor.
to begin it has been 2 years since my best friend killed herself, a year since i was Rpd and i have since then changed universities and moved to a different country. needless to say, I'm aware i need help. life has become overwhelming to say the least and I'm in the worst mental state of my life. i have been adviced hospitalization and because of that I am piss-in-my-pants scared of going to actually actively seek help. i could really use some help on what to do/ your personal experience with getting help (therapy/psychotherapy etc,.)

Is your fear based on finances? Job? You need to think of helping yourself. I too postponed help until it was almost too late. Don't wait. Help is available.

 

[Strugglingsaks]

Is your fear based on finances? Job? You need to think of helping yourself. I too postponed help until it was almost too late. Don't wait. Help is available.

its a mix of everything... right now i just cant bring myself to go anywhere i have no money AT ALL, im 3 weeks intyo my course at university andf im already behind and i just want it all to end.