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  1. Starfire

    Therapist of 12 years retiring leaving no support

    Going thru the same thing. My T cut way back on clients. He told me he was considering retirement in the future, no plans.then I noticed a change to the decor of his office. When I mentioned it, he said he was now sharing his office. But no change in appointments. We did start alternating in...
  2. Starfire

    The desire to return to the cause of my PTSD is growing

    Found that the structured life you spoke of where lines were clear and there was a special comrideriery, works best for me also. I just can’t do it for myself. Lay it all out. Then there comes either my new reality or convince myself tomorrow will be a better day to start. Promise myself I...
  3. Starfire

    Relationship Hiding PTSD for almost 15 years in our marriage

    It sounds to me, based on experience and my counseling, not any medical specialty, that your husband dealt with it in his way those 15 years. So he didn’t have an issue or problem with it. Has something significant changed? I’m an army brat, so I have some concept of the attention and effort...
  4. Starfire

    I don't have a friend

    Yes I can Was just facing this. Moved into an apartment for the first time. People are polite and friendly. Thought we could be ourselves in our apartment and ‘behave’ ourselves out in the complex. Picked one that had lots of nature and few apartment buildings. Love the view from our apartment...
  5. Starfire

    My shame …I cannot work right now

    My experience is guilt about everything. Why can’t I be normal? I should be able to do a,b,c. And most likely all at the same time, You are taking the bull by the horns and doing what is best for yourself. congratulations!
  6. Starfire

    I overcame the presuicidal syndrome

    Thanks for posting this. Have been recently trying to find events/feeling leading up to that conclusion. This is a big help. Thanks again. Hope it helps you as well
  7. Starfire

    DID DID folks - how do you deal with accidentally saying “we”?

    Of course it's the royal we! Or if my pet is around, I laughingly say we talk everything over. But most people don't notice conversational details like that or in these times, they don't mention it. You can also develop a look that says "what are you talking about? "
  8. Starfire

    Can you stop anxiety attack?

    My T and I are just exploring this so can't swear by it. But it has helped me. It has to do with the vagus nerve. It runs thru the entire body. I put a cold pack on my chest on the nerve and lay down. Still exploring if it only works at the early onset or if it would work if it was a full blown...
  9. Starfire

    DID DID folks - how do you deal with accidentally saying “we”?

    Well, have a dog. Say I talk everything (or that) over with my dog and we agree! Or somethings say it's the royal we. There is always the me, myself and I excuse. All done with a laugh. Personally find it rude to point it out. So have been known to make an unpleasant face and say 'did you...
  10. Starfire

    Emotional Response to a Trigger: Dealing with Numbness

    I've read your response several times. Thanks. Helped to read and realize it would take time. Kept coming back and evaluating progress. Still a little numbness but mostly that was slowly replaced by anger. Wanted to go tell him how dumb his action was and why. But that wouldn't benefit either of...
  11. Starfire

    I can't keep going.… everything is too much and I'm back at the time when my trauma happened

    Yeah. Whoever decided How this world should be run Made A cruddy decision. Look around And if you can't find anything You don't want to give up Then I think It's time To go find something. Don't let The abusers Win. They ruined enough of your life. Perhaps It's time To Show them Who is the...
  12. Starfire

    PTSD raises it's ugly head AGAIN

    It happened again. Haven't had a PTSD episode in awhile for which I'm grateful. Then a couple Sundays ago, a person in a similar position of my abuser, also don't know him well, came up behind me and gave me a hug. Immediate!y PTSD event with dissociation and then became completely numb. Went to...
  13. Starfire

    Emotional Response to a Trigger: Dealing with Numbness

    It happened again. Haven't had a PTSD episode in awhile for which I'm grateful. Then a couple Sundays ago, a person in a similar position of my abuser, also don't know him well, came up behind me and gave me a hug. Immediate!y PTSD event with dissociation and then became completely numb. Went to...
  14. Starfire

    Need advice serious depression

    I had a friend tell me once that I should just follow the words of the Prophet Nike. (Just do it) Doesn't have to feel good. Can make me cry, feel angry whatever. Just do it.
  15. Starfire

    Triggered in session due to therapist behavior

    Your T is suppose to be in a charge of leading your session to your benefit. Doesn't seem she was capable of doing that. To be crass, she couldn't do the job you paid her to do. At the very least she should have cancelled the session for medical reasons or just plain not feeling well...
  16. Starfire

    I don't know what to do now. Complaint about my treatment got rejected.

    You stood up for yourself and kept your dignity in tact. That was the most important and bravest part. You never know what's going on behind the Bureaucratic curtain. Perhaps your example will spur somebody or some bodies to do the same. Or yours will be the complaint that catches the eye of...
  17. Starfire

    Hey, really concerned I'm reaching the end of my tether and will end it soon

    Do you really want to continue the cycle of abuse with your children? You have given her a lot of power over your life. It is really hard fixing that. Sometimes it's easier to start new rather than fix something as long as you really want to change. A friend compared it to an old car. Sometimes...
  18. Starfire

    Training my Siberian husky as a service dog for PTSD?

    If in US, go up to DOJ website to find the rules. You may need to technically get a psychiatric SD specializing in PTSD. Usually, unless an expert trainer, you will need to find a school or certified service dog trainer. For example, my dog knows how to move safely thru a crowd, maneuver thru...
  19. Starfire

    Sufferer Medical Trauma/Told I deserved it.

    Totally understand. That's why I don't tell my medical doctor of my psych dx. Even pay my psych Doc out of pocket, a real pain in my wallet, so insurance doesn't know and can't spread the info. Was recently unexpectedly hospitalized for a serious infection, my psych doc came to visit and offered...
  20. Starfire

    Life span integration therapy?

    My therapist has suggested trying Life Span Integration therapy. Has anyone tried it? How did it go?
  21. Starfire

    One reason you keep going?

    Found a shirt that says: what if it works out? So I hang around somethings to prove that wrong or somethings just to see.
  22. Starfire

    Stuck in a cycle of suicidal thoughts, not sad just tired.

    Was thinking like this just the other day. But then realized I don't know what *better* or good is. Is this feeling good? Bought a shirt that says ...... What if it all works out? Have no idea what that would look like.Have been like this all my life no matter what has been tried. When some one...
  23. Starfire

    Other Severe lack of trust in medicine and healthcare "professionals"

    I was literally bit in the eye by some bug. In a nanosecond eye was swollen shut. Thought it just needed washing out but couldn't get eye open and it seemed glued shut. Sounded like a trip to (USA) Urgent care. When I arrived was told they had no appointments.Triage was called. Yup. It was...
  24. Starfire

    Childhood navigating not knowing if i am traumatized but having Symptoms that scare me

    Respect your feelings. It would be nice to say x happened therefore y resulted and here's how to fix it. I wanted the last one so badly. Worked for it for years. Then appeared a (trauma) therapist who didn't seem to care much about the past. He said let's focus on making your life now better and...
  25. Starfire

    Thinking you could have saved yourself from csa

    I use to think the same thing. If only I were smarter, if only I had told someone other than the one I did, called the police, fought them off, knew to scream even tho they threatened me, could have figured out this is not normal.............. But I wasn't. My fault Then my T told me to...
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