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Everything I have read about DID specifically references childhood trauma.
It seems likely that what @Ronin and @grit are talking about can happen (i.e. the original trauma that forms the DID occurs in childhood may go dormant, and then be brought active again by additional trauma/ stress etc...
I am surprised that you are taken aback by his response to your text. His response is exactly what I would expect.
He is clearly interested in dating you, as proven by the continued interest in asking you out. To think he would not hope your joke was serious does not seem like a reasonable...
Just read the first thread you started. I can relate to the sources of truama you identified in your life. I hope you are doing well. Keep reaching out for help. This is a really good place for support for the most part. But trust your therapists and professionals more than online feedback...
That is a normal response to trauma. It will get better over time. It is not your fault, or some weakness. You are still you and you will be able to overcome this with treatment over time.
I am glad you are going to see a new therapist. That is going to help a lot. It is hard to go without talking about it with your wife, but I am sure working with the therapist will help with that too.
I don't put a lot of stock in dreams. I would just say be clear about your personal boundaries and if you start wanting to cross them then reach out for more support.
I am glad you found spirituality that helps you. I used to hate even the concept of god, but I realized two things. First, i didnt think anyone could care about me cause I was a "piece of s&!t." And secondly, that I did not have to force the "god" my parents gave me on myself.
Making big changes is difficult. I am glad you did something you felt was in your own interest. It is hard when you care about someone to do something that is not going to feel good for either of you. So I understand how you feel. But doing what is best for you is doing what is best for both of...
With what you said about your support network and family I understand why you feel that way. Time to expand your network to include people who are more capable of being supportive.
It is ok that you were triggered. I am grateful that I have not been triggered with that intensity in a long period of time. But I can relate to being so out of it that I shake uncontrollably. Do you see a therapist?
It sounds like you are having a normal response to a very abnormal unhealthy situation. Try to be gentle with yourself. You did not contribute to this at all. I hope you can continue to talk to your therapist and bf. You did not deserve this.
I made vegitable rice so I can use it to make stir fry. I use an "Instapot" for it.
5 Cups of broth
2 tablespoons each of Soy Sauce, Teriyaki Sauce, Hoisin Sauce and Sriracha.
5 Cups of rice
Use the "Rice" setting for medium and allow the pot to process.
Release the pressure manually, stir...