Cerulean Synapse
Bronze Member
Just letting people know that this may trigger some people, but I feel that I had to express this in employment.
I've had a lot of trouble in the past with my employment, I mean I've worked very hard in the past all the way up until the trauma had happened. But it seems like work and certain people are triggering for my ptsd in the work place. I've been trying to get back to a part time job because I am disabled.
This recent run in I almost lost my life to committing suicide and was hospitalized. I had a boss who was very abusive and I mean psychologically and mentally as well as verbally. Sometimes she would through things and pound things to make noise but she never laid a finger on me like the other boss before me did when that one inflicted the first trauma.
As a result she would say my work was so bad, when in fact I knew my work was not bad, from other work related experiences I had at the time. She just monopolized my time when I already had another job that I enjoyed. My boss would not leave me alone. I ended up blocking her calls at one point, but then she cornered me at the apartment I lived at. She was also my landlord. So I ended up working for her again just to make her happy. I was going to partial hospital at the time. I know I was stupid to even be pushed around like that. She inflicted more daggers.
My self esteem was so low at that point and my boyfriend suggested that we just high tail it out of there, because at that point it is abuse. So we left gave notice which she also raised hell about. And I ended up in a nice place where I thought I would like to be. Anyways end of story goes she ended up still harassing me by phone, and ended up ODing.
I don't like writing forum posts about my experiences with employment and work. But this seemed like not much of a job. I hated every second of this life and this boss I was around. She not only did this to me but all of her employees too. She was mostly around me though. So I just want to get in a place of work where there is going to be a boss that is not as horrible as this woman was to me. I don't think I could handle another boss like her seriously. She was manipulative and above all I ended up in a coma over something that was totally preventable. I guess in the place of work it's a little more difficult to prove abuse at least not when it's being done physically to you.
I apologize in advance if this triggers anyone.
I've had a lot of trouble in the past with my employment, I mean I've worked very hard in the past all the way up until the trauma had happened. But it seems like work and certain people are triggering for my ptsd in the work place. I've been trying to get back to a part time job because I am disabled.
This recent run in I almost lost my life to committing suicide and was hospitalized. I had a boss who was very abusive and I mean psychologically and mentally as well as verbally. Sometimes she would through things and pound things to make noise but she never laid a finger on me like the other boss before me did when that one inflicted the first trauma.
As a result she would say my work was so bad, when in fact I knew my work was not bad, from other work related experiences I had at the time. She just monopolized my time when I already had another job that I enjoyed. My boss would not leave me alone. I ended up blocking her calls at one point, but then she cornered me at the apartment I lived at. She was also my landlord. So I ended up working for her again just to make her happy. I was going to partial hospital at the time. I know I was stupid to even be pushed around like that. She inflicted more daggers.
My self esteem was so low at that point and my boyfriend suggested that we just high tail it out of there, because at that point it is abuse. So we left gave notice which she also raised hell about. And I ended up in a nice place where I thought I would like to be. Anyways end of story goes she ended up still harassing me by phone, and ended up ODing.
I don't like writing forum posts about my experiences with employment and work. But this seemed like not much of a job. I hated every second of this life and this boss I was around. She not only did this to me but all of her employees too. She was mostly around me though. So I just want to get in a place of work where there is going to be a boss that is not as horrible as this woman was to me. I don't think I could handle another boss like her seriously. She was manipulative and above all I ended up in a coma over something that was totally preventable. I guess in the place of work it's a little more difficult to prove abuse at least not when it's being done physically to you.
I apologize in advance if this triggers anyone.
