Okay, I'm so happy with myself. I never write about my anxiety on Facebook, but I actually did post this one thing, 'cause I was so proud of myself. Of course I didn't go into the nitty gritty details like I'm going to here, but still, those who knew me knew what I was talking about.
So, I'm in an English course focussing on violence this semester, and reading the books on the reading list I realized that there were a lot of instances of self harm. Anyway, I've decided to pursue that for my major project. I had a really hard time writing the proposal (heard crying that wasn't really there, had "flashes" (That's what I call those kind of flashbacks where you get like a snapshot of an image, and then it just goes.) but I made up my mind to present.
Anyway, I presented, and then afterwards the teacher asked me a question: "Why did I think it was unethical to look at self-harm from a certain point of view." I answered her honestly and briefly "I've been in this type of situation before where I got blamed and I just think that it isn't any person's fault when someone does something like this." And I didn't get a flashback during the presentation, or have a panic attack, or anything!
She said it was the best presentation I'd ever done.
So yeah, I was really happy about that. Now I just need to hope the essay goes okay too.
So, I'm in an English course focussing on violence this semester, and reading the books on the reading list I realized that there were a lot of instances of self harm. Anyway, I've decided to pursue that for my major project. I had a really hard time writing the proposal (heard crying that wasn't really there, had "flashes" (That's what I call those kind of flashbacks where you get like a snapshot of an image, and then it just goes.) but I made up my mind to present.
Anyway, I presented, and then afterwards the teacher asked me a question: "Why did I think it was unethical to look at self-harm from a certain point of view." I answered her honestly and briefly "I've been in this type of situation before where I got blamed and I just think that it isn't any person's fault when someone does something like this." And I didn't get a flashback during the presentation, or have a panic attack, or anything!
She said it was the best presentation I'd ever done.
So yeah, I was really happy about that. Now I just need to hope the essay goes okay too.
