Advice Request: PT Is Angry Because I Fell Off The Wagon

[2quilt]

I had a Really Triggering weekend event, and so, yes, I binged again because I was terribly depressed. Now I see it coming: the PT is going to explode when I tell her, so I am going to quit going. I am quitting the PT cookie nazi and I am also quitting the diet plan that I was going to her subordinate for. I would have to see the nazi for both, and I don't want her to explode on me; she somehow thinks that I binge to piss her off, so she works me extra hard in the gym as she scowls at me and growls. That triggers my PTSD. My mother tortured me.

 

[Marlene]

2...is there any other PT in the area that you could use? I honestly can't believe a professional would be such an ass! Your binge is your business (unless you ask her advice) and you have to live with it. Not her. A medical professional is supposed to help and support you and advise you. Not treat you like a misbehaving child.

I'm glad that you're not going to subject yourself to something that's so triggering. But don't stop working on helping yourself to feel better. You're too important to let some twit take yourself off-course.

Lisa

 

[Farine]

2quilt, I agree with Marlene.

I also want to mention that my therapist taught me to honor my coping skills. They got me to where I am today. I have a choice to choose something else to support my emotional health because I found SOMETHING, [anything] to hold onto. In your case, sugar. Now, I might point out that you are coming here and profoundly sharing with us here. HEY! There's no calories in a post!!! You just didn't have that when you were a kid as an option. You could post 100 times and not affect your system.. well you'd use up some calories typing.

Your worth is not the sum of your performance. YOU ARE.. a person.. who is loved (I can see that from the other responses on this thread..) and honest and brave (I'm overweight and I'm not ready to list THAT yet). You have set limits on what behavior you will permit. THAT"S HUGE! You have made sensible plans for the future. I do agree with the other folks that the professional is in need of some help. It's possible that she is another closeted hurting person. I look at people with a whole new set of filters. When I see someone acting out, I remember that sometimes I'm the problem child. That doesn't excuse anyone.. least of all .. me. But it does mean that I respond back with firmness based in consideration, not judgement.

I'm impressed.

 

[Deleted member 541]

2quilt,

Having diabetes is serious, but it can be managed. For your sake, try eating a healthy diet, and if you screw up and binge every once in awhile, then you do. As long as you control your sugar intake most of the time, it's no big deal if you mess up once in awhile. You just CAN'T do it everyday.

You know what you are supposed to eat, how much and that you are supposed to exercise. You are an adult, and if you can't be responsible for yourself, then no one can make you do it. You know the consequences of un-managed diabetes, you are an adult, make your own decisions, and be responsible for your own health.....

 

[popeye]

I just noticed all of the comments on here are from women. As a man I would like to say, and this is not directed at anyone, I personally do not care how big or small a woman is. Of course there are health issues on either side of the ball, obesity and anorexia, both of which can be life threatening.

I say this because many of the women I know are on diets because of vanity. They claim that they want to look good to get a man or please their man. Honestly if you need to lose weight to keep your man happy then he doesn't truly love you. My wife is kinda like a yo-yo she has weighed from 150-250 and I could careless. I might be one of the few guys in the world that thinks like that. But I will say this much my wife has the sexiest eyes I have ever seen and to me I don't care if there is 100 lbs around those eyes or 300 lbs. It's the person behind those eyes.

Ok I have had my 2 cents. Not that it made a lot of sense.

P.S. Long live the Girl Scout cookies!!!

 

[Marlene]

Popeye, some guys do care and are all about the vanity and all that crap. My husband is like you...he married me, not my weight. I'm actually more concerned about it than he is.

I'm glad to see that there are more guys like him around.

Lisa

 

[2quilt]

Thanks to everyone! Yes, I am also lucky to have a man who loves me even though I weigh more than he does. I get sad sometimes about how I look in the mirror naked (no visuals here, people!) and my husband walks up behind me and grabs my butt or boob and kisses me. I am loved. I am loved more than the total calories of a box of peanut butter chocolate Girl Scout Cookies.
I have a transitional thought, which I will use to start another thread...sugar and food addiction versus other forms of substance abuse.