Bringing up treatment

[Anon6739]

I feel hollow and I want to know why. I’m afraid to bring up talking to someone to my nan since last year she found an unfinished suicide note in my room and she might assume im suicidal again. I’m not as bad as I was then I guess. I have some moments where I’m not just here, where I feel something but I walk around and I feel like it’d be no different if I was dead. I’d like some advice on how to bring it up and not make it seem like I’m suicidal again.
Ps. Thanks to anyone who replies or has replied to my posts, whenever I do post it’s the most exciting thing about my life.

 

[parrotthepolly]

I feel the same way, definitely not living or experiencing life how it should but not ready to die yet.

Seems like what you written here could work unless she won't believe you're in fact not suicidal...

 

[Friday]

I’d like some advice on how to bring it up and not make it seem like I’m suicidal again.

I’d like some help working things out, while I’m not in as dark a place as I was last year.

 

[gorgonzola]

If your "she's thinking I'm suicidal" alarm goes off, you could point out that wanting to begin treatment is not something that people already set on suicide generally do.

Perhaps you could introduce the idea of therapy with a different, milder frame, e.g. wanting to work on your self-esteem or to become able to open up to people in your life more. Tailor that to whatever you think your nan might respond most positively to. That might initially land you with a therapist in the wrong specialty, but they should be able to direct you from there once your foot is in the door. You can always explain that to your nan as therapist #1 being a poor fit for you, which happens.

Can't say that I have experience on this one though, so I'm just spitballing here. Well, apart from being avoidant as f*ck when it comes to family.