Broken

[jeeps for now]

Sammy,

I just read your thread and wanted to say I am sorry to hear of your situations. I have had six German Shepherds over the years, and I have watched both my parents die. I understand your stress levels. All I can really suggest is to continue communicating with people as well as possible, and that includes posting here. It helps.

Things can and will get better for you. Take small steps.

 

[Sammy]

It is 2:30 AM here in MA and I just got home from the vet clinic. We just put our precious Annie to sleep. She had another bad day and it became clear it was time to make her suffering end. I am devastated. She was my best friend and I miss her terribly already. I know it was the right thing to do for her. But, for me, there is a whole in my heart that is going to take some time to heal She was the best dog ever and knew me better than I knew me.

The house feels empty.

Rest well, Annie.

 

[jeeps for now]

Peace

 

[Heather]

She was a beautiful girl, Sammy. Now she can run and play in that special place where all animals go when it's there time.

Peace to you my friend.

Hugs. Lots and lots of hugs. Heather.

 

[Tinyflame]

I'm so sorry Sammy, she is beautiful :(:cry:
xoxox

 

[complexmind]

I'm so sorry Sammy.

 

[intothelight]

Sammy,

I am so sorry you lost your friend.

Debbie

 

[Apollo1716]

Hi Sammy: Believe it or not, I am the wife of a ret'd mil veteran with PTSD, anger issues, etc... Have secondary PTSD because of vbl and physical abuse (never, ever thought it could happen to me). If you talk to the husband, you would think I was the wicked witch of the East & West! Boy, I thought I was the best... working, cooking, cleaning, house repairs & maint. I also have an older german shepherd that's not doing well, and my best friend committed suicide last month. It never ends and somedays I think the tears never will either... but then the next day comes. I try to keep busy and it's better... not great... just a bit better. You are not alone.

 

[curiouser]

Sammy, I'm so sorry for your loss, may the good memories of past shared moments with Annie comfort you during this difficult time.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you find peace on your healing journey.

 

[Sammy]

Thanks for all the kind thoughts. I have been a wreck the past couple of days. Managed to teach but mostly because I just made myself not think about Annie. As soon as I was done teaching, it was all I could do to keep from crying until I was in my car and alone. Then, I could barely drive. I found all kinds of reasons to not come home - delivered thank you cards to Annie's regular vet and the emergency vet clinic. Git myself caught in rush hour traffic and really didn't mind. The house is just so darned quiet. It is the first time in over 20 years we have not had at least one big dog in the house and I miss the "Where have you been? I've been waiting for you!! Let's play!" As crazy as she made me with her endless energy, I miss that energy, the morning kisses, the insistence that we play, her gentle spirit. She may have not been an official therapy dog but she knew when I was dealing with anxiety before I knew. She was my trusted friend (I definitely like dogs better than most humans), confidant, and security blanket. With her, I felt safe.

I miss her.

 

[Heather]

I definitely like dogs better than most humans.

Me too! I do love German Shepards. She was such a beautiful looking girl:).

I had a cat for 18 years that my dad gave us. It was the only decent thing he ever did for us. She died back in 2000. It was awful. She started having seizures and the next morning she went into cardiac arrest. I never cried so much in my life. I share your pain Sammy.

Hugs. Heather