Exhausted With This Life...

[Nicolesnow]

I feel just tired..tired of being scared..always worrying always thinking..worried for bad things to happen..and when they do happen blaming myself for bad things happening to me because I think negatively..wondering why me..thinking back to my cau looming at things I may have done to deserve my hardships..then hating my self for feeling bad about my life because so many suffer far worse then me..tired of feeling judged..that no one likes me..paranoid that people don't like me..I am mess..I wish for peace but I am never satisfied..maybe I don't deserve a peaceful life..I work hard but so many people do..I am ungrateful.... I just want to leave and have calmness like when u are at the beach and hear the quietness and feel whole. I feel like I am whining I have food..a house.. education..I am far better off then so many..

 

[Snowflakes]

@Nicolesnow You are here with friends, you are not alone. We hear you. Take care

 

[SasTana]

I feel just tired..tired of being scared..always worrying always thinking..worried for bad things to...

Oh my freaking gosh! That is exactly how I have been feeling the last two years! I am new here and new to talking about any of this so bear with me... I don't want to say the wrong thing. Know that you are not alone and that those feelings seem to come with the territory.
Are you seeing a therapist? For the first time in my life I have been seeing one - for 7 months now. I am just beginning to feel less tired and less hopeless and less every single other thing you said plus even peace from time to time.
You are worth it and you do deserve good things! You are "enough" right now, exactly as you are! You can allow yourself to be kind to yourself and to begin healing. I know it can get better! While we all screw up, humans are also amazing! You are full of possibilities and capabilities. You can do this!

 

[Nicolesnow]

Oh my freaking gosh! That is exactly how I have been feeling the last two years! I am new here and new...

Thank you so much.. for making me feel not alone..I just started seeing a therapist...and I am learning a lot.. understanding how to recognize when I am escalating in my anxiety.