Sufferer First Time For Everything!

[Dragonfly-Dawn]

Hi,

I am completely new to this forum but also this in general, reaching out to talk to people. Not to mention doing it on the Internet. I am not to comfortable in sharing all to much at the moment.

I'm scared, I'm scared of my family, my partner, my workplace, my therapist (although he is the only one who I truly deep down do trust), I'm even scared of you guys/the internet.

I would normally lie and say I'm ok, that I'm a good person. That I think everything will be fine. I put on a mask everyday. But I figure I should try to be at least real somewhere. Even if it's just this once.

I was sexually assualted....

I feel like crap!!!! I feel like the world is crumbling. I hate myself and my life. If you can call it a life. I hate my nightmares and what this has done to my family. I want to be all alone, to deal with this alone. I'm so angry with myself....

This is only some of me, and although you don't know me, I feel like you'd hate me to. It is what it is right? This is me. Imperfect at the best, I'm sorry!

 

[Lucycat]

Hi @Dragonfly-Dawn and welcome to the forum!

We are a friendly bunch on the whole although sometimes we get into some very interesting heated debates. All good though and shows cultural diversity!

I am sorry that you were assaulted. There are many people on here in a similar situation, who I am sure will be very supportive.You don't say how long ago it happened, but I am sensing that maybe it is recent. Either way I am glad that you are seeing a therapist. It does get better...

 

[0722]

I'm sorry you've gone through that Dragonfly-Dawn, as mentioned in my reply to you in my introduction post, I'm around for a chat!

 

[intothelight]

@Dragonfly-Dawn Welcome!

It is a huge step to join and make that first post. The emotions that you are experiencing have been experienced by all of us to some degree to another. I am sorry you were attacked and as you heal you will learn not to be angry at yourself and the anger will go to the people/person that deserves it.

 

[joeylittle]

Welcome, @Dragonfly-Dawn - I'm really glad you found us. I think lots of us here can identify with feeling like it's all just crashing down. So, you're really not alone. And you've nothing to apologize for.