First Traumatic Incident Reduction Treatment.

[jc3]

Yesterday morning I was scheduled to have my first T.I.R. treatment which was postponed until 2 in the afternoon. I first learned about the treatment almost two months ago and met the therapist who is facilitating the treatment around the same time. Thankfully he is a very gentle, compassionate and knowledgeable man who listens very closely. For my first treatment we decided to address one of my primary contributing experiences with abandonment which began when I was about 7 years old. At first I recalled a month long inpatient stay at an out of town hospital which was unjust and unnecessary which was a traumatizing experience with accompanying bad memories although I did not experience much grief in the moment of reflection. He then proceeded to ask me to recall an early experience which had much more profound memories. I was hospitalized for the first of three separate times at another out of town hospital for about a month away everything and everyone that I knew. He asked me to snapshot the first memory which involved my mother and I approaching the hopsital in the car. I remember looking at her as soon as an extremely emotional song came on the radio, begging her to take me home, expressing immense fear. I could not stop crying. He then asked me to recall everything else about the experience and run through it all as if it were a short movie. I have many memories of that hospital, which I stayed at twice. The other extremely sad memory I recalled during the movie type sequence was of a little black boy who was ragefully upset immediately after his mother left. I remember very vividly watching him and completely empathizing with his pain at that moment. I felt so bad for him. Both the facilitator and I ran through this entire sequence four times, which the first two had accompanying sadness which made me cry profusely. The last two sequences I actually experienced and memorized more pleasant experiences of my admission there which I did not feel any grief through. The treatments goal, I do believe, is to enable me to confront the pain of the memory and truly leave it behind so that it reduces, or in an ideal case, completely eradicates the memories ability to give me excruciatingly painful flashbacks. I think the first treatment was a big step in the right direction since I did not have much fear attached to the thought of being hospitalized at an inpatient ward in the future.

 

[Seasounds]

I'm not sure what TIR is?