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SophieBernstein

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Well, where should I start?
Since I was 14 I started to think I had something wrong because I started to find myself with humor changes and with depression ( but in that time I thought It was because of puberty).
I started to be worse and worse so with 16 I told my mother buuuuut she told me I was overreacting and being dramatic and also my dad agreed her so I just didn´t say anything for years.

When I was 18 I started having another depressive period but my suicidal thought became suicidal behaviors and one friend threatened about telling my family so I did before. They trusted me but because of my cuts... And well, there I started my personal path of psychiatry. I was diagnose with depression, anxiety, body dysmorphic disorder and an unspecified personality disorder.
Then, in the several times I´ve been on the spych ward they diagnose me borderline personality disorder and post traumatic stress disorder (but is actually complex). And my psycologist told me I´ve got social anxiety and he is thinking now I may have a dissociative disorder so... Well, I think I may be a lab rat.

The greatest part is that I don´t think I had the worst childhood but here I am. I also like a lot painting, kick boxing and a lot of stuff. I really enjoy learning new things when I´m fine enough and also, I´m learning english too so, please sorry If I have so many mistakes. Hope you all are well and thanks you for existing because you are all warriors. <3
 
Well, where should I start?
Since I was 14 I started to think I had something wrong because I started to find myself with humor changes and with depression ( but in that time I thought It was because of puberty).
I started to be worse and worse so with 16 I told my mother buuuuut she told me I was overreacting and being dramatic and also my dad agreed her so I just didn´t say anything for years.

When I was 18 I started having another depressive period but my suicidal thought became suicidal behaviors and one friend threatened about telling my family so I did before. They trusted me but because of my cuts... And well, there I started my personal path of psychiatry. I was diagnose with depression, anxiety, body dysmorphic disorder and an unspecified personality disorder.
Then, in the several times I´ve been on the spych ward they diagnose me borderline personality disorder and post traumatic stress disorder (but is actually complex). And my psycologist told me I´ve got social anxiety and he is thinking now I may have a dissociative disorder so... Well, I think I may be a lab rat.

The greatest part is that I don´t think I had the worst childhood but here I am. I also like a lot painting, kick boxing and a lot of stuff. I really enjoy learning new things when I´m fine enough and also, I´m learning english too so, please sorry If I have so many mistakes. Hope you all are well and thanks you for existing because you are all warriors. <3
Thank you for sharing your story with us. It sounds like you have been through a lot, and it takes a great deal of courage to open up about your struggles.

It's unfortunate that your concerns were dismissed by your family when you first tried to talk to them about your mental health. It's important to remember that there is no shame in seeking help, and it's brave of you to acknowledge your struggles and take steps towards recovery.

It's not uncommon for individuals with PTSD and/or CPTSD to receive multiple diagnoses before finding a proper one. The most important thing is that you continue to work with your mental health professionals and find a treatment approach that works best for you. It's also great to hear that you have hobbies and interests that bring you joy and fulfillment.

Remember that you are not alone and that there are many others on this journey with you. The community here is supportive, and there are specific forums on myptsd.com for various topics related to PTSD and CPTSD. Keep reaching out for help and connection, and don't hesitate to seek professional support if you need it.
 
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