Goal of The Day-Challenging Your PTSD

[EverOnly358]

:joyful: Did well yesterday. I did go to the gym, I went shopping and I started getting ready for homeschooling to start up again. We're starting on Wednesday, though, since my son has another snow day on Tuesday (super cold here). :coffee:

My goals for today are to go to the gym, make lunch :hungry:, go to therapy, possibly go shopping, clean up the house and continue to work on getting stuff organized to go back to homeschooling on Wednesday. :D

 

[Britt.f7]

Reading my inspirational book despite it's intention to make me feel good about myself. ;)

 

[EverOnly358]

I did go to the gym yesterday, did lunch, went to therapy, went shopping, cleaned the house and worked on school stuff. Excellent. :cool:

My goal for today was just to hang with the kids on the last full day of winter break. We had a great time! :joyful:

 

[Britt.f7]

Going to my doctor's appointment. Which I am procrastinating about. Knowing that I have two more appointments after this. Tired of being touched.

 

[EverOnly358]

@Britt.f7... best of luck today and tomorrow. I like how you're focusing on the good things... like going out to eat with family, and enjoying that. I hope you feel better soon!

Let's see... I'm not sure what the plan is today. Everything that was planned has flown out the window... and now it's up to me to try to make everyone happy... it's SO annoying. :banghead: So, my goal is to just remain calm and take things as they come. :smug: To understand that I can't fix everything or make everything work out when things change at the last minute. :confused: I'm going to try not to act frustrated towards everyone, even though inside I'M SO FRUSTRATED! :depressed:

 

[Britt.f7]

@EverOnly358 Thanks for the support. Today's was hard because I hate when they pace my heart. The muscle actually hurts afterwards. I found out I'm not the only one it does that too so I don't feel so much like a whack job. ;)

I'm sorry your plans aren't going as you hoped. I hate that. Just found out today that we won't be able to go out for breakfast between appointments tomorrow, due to the cat scan. Can't eat or have caffeine. So now we have to figure out what to do for two hours between that test and the other. So I can understand your frustration. Especially if other's are depending on you. One thing I have to remind myself, and it looks like you do too, you can't make everyone happy. Too difficult a job for one thing. Hang in there. It looks like you have this!

 

[EverOnly358]

Thanks @Britt.f7! You know just what I mean! I'm sorry about the cat scan and all the doctor stuff... it can all be so invasive and awful. When they pace your heart, yikes, that sounds terrible. I'm sorry you're in pain, so sorry. Hang in there, I know you'll get through it all okay! I always like looking through bookstores or shops in between appointments... maybe something like that would work for you? It bites though, that your plans had to change. I like being able to count on things! I need that consistency.

Today has been crazy and everything, but I've been pretty calm about it all, I think. Not perfect, not even close, but no meltdowns at least. I'm looking forward to tomorrow and next week, when things will be back on schedule. It's been complicated with the winter break and snow days from school. :confused: You're so right... we can't make everyone happy. That doesn't really stop me from trying, though. ;)

 

[ms spock]

I went to the GPs and got the referrals for the annual checking I don't have family breast and ovarian cancer checks so that is good. That happens on Monday. I got more blood work done.

I also worked on writing an important letter and sent it off.

 

[intothelight]

Finish W-2's, go to the gym, finish putting away Christmas decorations and have some fun!

 

[EverOnly358]

I did okay yesterday, and I'm proud of that. I wasn't super controlling but I did try to balance things out so that the most good things happened. It wasn't a perfect day, but I was calm and didn't freak out. The only downside... today I have a cold. So, my goals for today are to do what I absolutely *must* do and then try to rest and get better as quickly as I can. :x3:

And I can't help it... sometimes I actually sort of like being visibly sick... like with a cold, because then at least it's clear to the people around me that I'm suffering from something. Too often with PTSD, no one notices how I struggle or that I'm struggling at all. I really must look so different on the outside compared to what I feel on the inside. So, today I'm letting people take care of me and I'm taking care of myself and I'm trying to let it all be a good thing for me. It's so hard for me not to feel guilty for not being up and doing everything, but I'm trying. :confused:

 

[ms spock]

Challenging my thinking.

 

[EverOnly358]

I did rest yesterday and I did get everything done that I was responsible for. So that's good. :)

Today I'm really feeling under the weather (shouldn't have said anything about liking to be sick, am I right? ;)) and I'm just going to have to take the day off and rest. I need to follow through with this and not hop up and do things the minute I feel a little bit better. :O_o: