Hello, I'm Nikki!
This forum has been really helpful so far, so thanks everybody!
I figured I could try to introduce myself. I'm sorry if it's difficult to read or if I'm doing something wrong. English isn't my first language, I'm not used to talking about myself and I'm completely new to this whole forum thing.
I was first diagnosed when I was five years old. I was a victim in a shooting. My heart was severely damaged so I've spend a lot of time in hospitals since then and I'm still waiting for a new heart.
Anyway, once I got out of the hospital, my dad's support consisted of "training" me not to show any signs of weakness. He emotionally and physically (never sexually) abused me until my parents got divorced when I was nine.
Then, two years ago, I was raped countless times by my swimming coach for three months.
I've been seeing a therapist more or less regularly since I was nine.
Luckily, I'm more than just a trauma survivor, so:
I'm a violinist, violin teacher and swimming coach. I finished school as the second best this year and would love to study medicine. I moved in with my boyfriend a month ago and I'm working in a hospital to see if I could work as a doctor (it's not easy for me to be in hospitals).
I've experienced some painful things this year and there's been a lot of change lately so maybe that's why I feel like there are more setbacks than anything else right now.
I have no idea how I used to be able to handle all those hobbies, plans, jobs and relationships. I've always been working and hoping for a life in which my PTSD doesn't play such a big part and I think in general, I've always been making progress. But now I'm just really trying not to quit everything and everyone.
I don't give up easily though, so I'm really hoping that I'll get better again soon :)
Thank you for reading this!
Nikki
This forum has been really helpful so far, so thanks everybody!
I figured I could try to introduce myself. I'm sorry if it's difficult to read or if I'm doing something wrong. English isn't my first language, I'm not used to talking about myself and I'm completely new to this whole forum thing.
I was first diagnosed when I was five years old. I was a victim in a shooting. My heart was severely damaged so I've spend a lot of time in hospitals since then and I'm still waiting for a new heart.
Anyway, once I got out of the hospital, my dad's support consisted of "training" me not to show any signs of weakness. He emotionally and physically (never sexually) abused me until my parents got divorced when I was nine.
Then, two years ago, I was raped countless times by my swimming coach for three months.
I've been seeing a therapist more or less regularly since I was nine.
Luckily, I'm more than just a trauma survivor, so:
I'm a violinist, violin teacher and swimming coach. I finished school as the second best this year and would love to study medicine. I moved in with my boyfriend a month ago and I'm working in a hospital to see if I could work as a doctor (it's not easy for me to be in hospitals).
I've experienced some painful things this year and there's been a lot of change lately so maybe that's why I feel like there are more setbacks than anything else right now.
I have no idea how I used to be able to handle all those hobbies, plans, jobs and relationships. I've always been working and hoping for a life in which my PTSD doesn't play such a big part and I think in general, I've always been making progress. But now I'm just really trying not to quit everything and everyone.
I don't give up easily though, so I'm really hoping that I'll get better again soon :)
Thank you for reading this!
Nikki
