This is the first time I've used a site like this. I decided to join after a week of nightmares that left me retching and in a cold sweat at 3 am, and my family and friends, much as they try, simply can't understand.
I'm 23 years old, female, and I have PTSD/Complex Trauma from three years of extreme domestic violence courtesy of my ex-fiancé, for which I've been hospitalized and had months of counselling. Beta blockers and Citalopram just about keep my symptoms under control, but also make me feel even deader. I'm going back to college in the fall and am under a lot of pressure from my family to put the past behind me and act like everything's OK, but right now that simply isn't possible and part of me is afraid that it never will be.
I'm 23 years old, female, and I have PTSD/Complex Trauma from three years of extreme domestic violence courtesy of my ex-fiancé, for which I've been hospitalized and had months of counselling. Beta blockers and Citalopram just about keep my symptoms under control, but also make me feel even deader. I'm going back to college in the fall and am under a lot of pressure from my family to put the past behind me and act like everything's OK, but right now that simply isn't possible and part of me is afraid that it never will be.