Hi,
I just joined the forum today, I was also recently diagnosed with PTSD involving a rape 4 years ago. I have certainly found it extremely difficult to explain these feelings to people aside from my therapist, or even fully understanding them myself. There's a sense of feeling like a ruined woman, I remember for a long time, when I was 18 or 19, feeling as though I had been robbed of all the innocence I ever had, and being so incredibly pissed off. I suppose there was a grieving process to a degree, and of course the healing is a long, long process. This has only been my experience, I hope you're able to use this space as a comforting outlet.