I have been taking hydrocodone for a while now and I feel like its taking over my life...not in the sense that I have to have it but I can't sleep when I don't have it. My should got blown out in the war and I have had surgery it although I have torn it again which is why I'm on the meds. It helps me not to dream and this makes me happy although I know it's not the answer it's hard to want to remember life as reality. The war has pushed me to a level of uncertain sleep and horrible annoyance with everyone around me.