Hello again.
I joined up about a week ago and even then had doubts about whether or not I belong here but I have taken another major step today.
I emailed Women's Aid and told them that I needed help. I actually did it. I couldn't phone because I have real problems speaking verbally but I made first contact.
I'm not sure if I need a refuge or a psychiactric institution more but I'm going to get help. I have had complex trauma all my life (I am just re-accepting) and am still in the situation that caused it but that's not OK with me anymore. I am going to get help! I am ready! This is a real landmark for me and I wanted to put it here so that others who havn't taken the step can see that you can do it too!
I have no idea what is going to happen next or the time frames for getting the help so I am a little aprehensive but otherwise I am feeling positive. OK, so I'm more petrified than aprehensive but I am going to keep taking steps anyway.
I have had 30 years of being a narcissists pet and I am ready to get out. This will mean loosing what few relatives that havn't turned to heroin or turned against me on his say so. I won't need to stay around here because there is no-one to stay for. My mother only calls when she is skint so I won't have to feel guilty for not staying around for her so it is just possible that at some point I can be FREEEEEEEEEEEE!
I joined up about a week ago and even then had doubts about whether or not I belong here but I have taken another major step today.
I emailed Women's Aid and told them that I needed help. I actually did it. I couldn't phone because I have real problems speaking verbally but I made first contact.
I'm not sure if I need a refuge or a psychiactric institution more but I'm going to get help. I have had complex trauma all my life (I am just re-accepting) and am still in the situation that caused it but that's not OK with me anymore. I am going to get help! I am ready! This is a real landmark for me and I wanted to put it here so that others who havn't taken the step can see that you can do it too!
I have no idea what is going to happen next or the time frames for getting the help so I am a little aprehensive but otherwise I am feeling positive. OK, so I'm more petrified than aprehensive but I am going to keep taking steps anyway.
I have had 30 years of being a narcissists pet and I am ready to get out. This will mean loosing what few relatives that havn't turned to heroin or turned against me on his say so. I won't need to stay around here because there is no-one to stay for. My mother only calls when she is skint so I won't have to feel guilty for not staying around for her so it is just possible that at some point I can be FREEEEEEEEEEEE!
