I Meet Colossus In My Dreams

[LittleMy]

My dreams are so often about doomsday and about me saving my family. The thing is, I don't feel they are nightmares, I find them beautiful. I have dreamt dreams of the world ending since I was very young, I used to be scared but I'm not anymore. The dreams are majestic, the details are better than in cinema, I have seen enourmous meteorites falling in flames and smoke through the sky and smashing into our earth in a mindshattering blow, throwing the seas into the air and crushing whole cities. I have met Colossus more times than I can remember, me hiding in an enourmous dome of clear glass, trying to find shelter. But I never feel scared, I just feel a thrill and pure awe of these majestic and horrifying creatures, I can only focus on how beautiful they are, like a lion simply acting according to their nature, me, I'm just an insect in the way. I'm more concerned for my family, I have to keep them out of harm and take us into safety. What does this mean? Is it completely F****d up to dream these dreams?

 

[Springer80]

No it's not screwed up. There are plenty of discussions on here where totally submersive and beautifully vivid dreams come up. I've been having them for 15 years at least.

Like you I love them, they are better than any visual experience you can have anywhere else.
It just sounds like your subconscious is filtering some pretty fundamental things for you.

Natural disasters are out of your control, often called 'acts of God', a threat from an awesome power.
I find it interesting that the seas get thrown into the air. Water is widely accepted as representing the subconscious, the fact that it gets disrupted and placed out of its natural habitat, suggests that some big things are waking up in you.

Also the fact that you are behind a glass dome seems pretty significant. It renders you disconnected, an observer but also without agency in the world and events happening to you.

The need to remove your family to safety seems to be about supressed emotion and action, your inability to effect, the need to be able to act on your will.

I'm glad your not scared of them, they will help you a lot I think.

 

[Deleted member 19804]

It may be some form of a lucid dream (when you realise that you're dreaming while you are still in that dream). Because you've had this dream so many times now, maybe you're starting to recognise that it's just a dream and not a real doomsday. That realisation might help you relax and take the time to appreciate the spectacular things that your mind can create.

And no, I don't think that there is anything strange about your dream. I am happy for you that it no longer scares you, and, like @Springer80 , I too believe it can be very helpful to you.

Maybe you can start a little dream diary? You can write down your dreams in it as soon as you wake up, because you remember the most of your dreams at that point.

 

[marylouise]

What you describe sounds like a shamanic journey. I agree with @Snowwhite that you may want to write down your dreams. They sound beautiful and powerful.

 

[LittleMy]

@Springer80, Thank you so much for your thoughts, you really helped me putting this in some perspective. I talked to my faincé after reading your message and he said these meteorites and colossus, they are me, my strenght, breaking the world I used to be trapped in. That's why I'm not scared, I feel liberated, although still scared of what will happen to my family now when the world they know is broken.

@Snowwhite, I think it sounds like a good idea to do a dream diary. I'll leave a note book on the bedside table. :)

 

[LittleMy]

@marylouise, What is a shamanic journey? Sounds cool!

 

[Springer80]

I talked to my faincé after reading your message and he said these meteorites and colossus, they are me, my strenght, breaking the world I used to be trapped in.

Sounds interesting. Obviously you will know what meaning fits with you when you hear it. When your in tune with your feelings you can identify what role or event is you and what other things are represented.

If you feel the colossus is you then it must be a pretty exciting time and sounds like a big relief after a lot of hard work well done.

 

[Springer80]

Maybe the colossus is your power represented separately of yourself. Perhaps you and it will merge when you feel like you wield that power and then you won't see the colossus because it and you will be in the first person. ???? Just a thought.

 

[LittleMy]

@Springer, yeah that's what I'm hoping, that colossus and me maybe should merge! Maybe I need to meet colossus, maybe I need to let my family fend for themselves and actually greet this creature.

It has been a very tough struggle which started when I met my fiancé. My family has been trying to split us up, and I started to realise I needed to separate myself from them about 2 years ago. Things got confused when I moved country about 1 1/2 years ago, they never wanted to actually admit that I was moving. Ever since then my mother and sister have become very very mean, to the point when I didn't know who I was anymore. I crashed in June when I was forced to come home and really saw my family with clean eyes for the first time. I have spent the last two months rebuilding and can finally say that I will do fine. I am great, I am powerful, more powerful than any of my family member will ever become, and I don't need them, in fact, I'm better off without them.

Thank you so very much for giving me your perspective and ideas!

 

[ASGM]

LittleMy, I signed up just because I read your dream. So many of your images sounded familiar to me. I always called them my 'reconnaisance' dreams. In my experience, when meteors fall or great earthquakes or tornados are in my dreams, they have ended up being precognitive dreams. The people, or the place, is some place where I experience a powerful piece of living in my real future, for good or ill. Yours may not be like this at all, but the massive figures, epic scope, and natural disasters make my dreams awe inspiring, vivid, and leave lasting impressions. Sometimes I am saving the world from zombies, or armed invasions, aliens attack or even a fast approaching ice age. I live as much or more life in my dreams than in my waking life. I try to bring that sense of wonder in the face of danger and immeninent threat with me into my real life, where I find the pain much more struggle than amazing experience no matter what. Sadly, we cannot save our families from themselves. I like the hope in your fiance's interpretation, that what appear to be disasters are actually breaking apart the ties that bind and setting you on your own adventure.