In Relationship (finally :-)

[Echo]

@DMerish - I'm so sorry that things have gone wrong for you. I just wanted to say I had the same experience of waking (with a jolt) several seconds after someone sent me a message from a different timezone. It happened night after night and each time at different times. In my case it was my now ex's previous girlfriend 'innocently' getting in touch to fish to see what was going on for him and to try and work out if he and I were together. After several nights, and horrible sensations of danger, I blocked her entirely. I was very shaken by the experience and understood it to be a sort of psychic interference which I was able to register on some level. In my case, I was right to be concerned. She is the type of woman who doesn't want her ex but also doesn't want him to be with anyone else. She did then mess with his head and it contributed to him running away with no explanation. I was right to intuit danger. Maybe you could feel him judging you and starting to pull away. People do have strong psychic connections.

 

[nursenurse]

Oh, I am really sorry about that. Yeah, you can't go chasing. Onwards and upwards, though. Who knows what the future will bring, it is a big beautiful world out there. With or without someone beside you.

 

[DMerish]

Aww, thanks for the empathy and words of support. It's very appreciated.

I'm not letting the recent "failure" dictate my future. I already have three "dates" set for this week. :sick: :playful: :bored:

I've done a great deal of healing since the past relationship with abusive NPD and have come to a point where PTSD symptoms are well managed. But over the last few months (of "dating) I've learned I'm still dealing with a lack of confidance and a bit of low self-esteem. Being receptive to compliments and genuine affirmations from several nice, seemingly rather healthy males, is helping me to to evaluate myself in a more realistic and balanced manner. I have to be careful though because, I think in essence, I'm one of those people who truely loves life and I fall in love quite easily and anyone/anything that shows me their soul a little bit, whether it's a man, a female friend, a dog, a forest stream, an open meadow with wildflowers. . . . not sure if anyone else "gets it". :inlove:

 

[Echo]

and anyone/anything that shows me their soul a little bit, whether it's a man, a female friend, a dog, a forest stream, an open meadow with wildflowers. . . . not sure if anyone else "gets it".

That's me to a tee. If someone shares those things with me, then I'm hooked, too.

 

[nursenurse]

I get it, because it is so very simple and the essence of what the world longs for. Someone who can love us, and whom we love back. No complications.