Sitting in the waiting room for my first Ketamine treatment. Felt quite anxious yesterday but now feeling calm/ curious/ excited. Can't seem to get a phone signal here, so will have to post this afterwards....
Really hoping this works/ has a positive effect.
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So... It took 2 hours... and went well... I'm at the bakery next to the clinic, waiting to be picked up and having a late breakfast cos I was told not to eat before the treatment cos of the risk of nausea and potentially throwing up.
The treatment itself was fine... Quite "trippy" and more intense than I expected, given that I only got half the usual dose cos it was the first time...
I can best describe it like being really, really drunk at a fun fair and going on various rides like roller coasters, carousels, bumper cars and whatever, and your body feeling weird but you're way too drunk to care.
None of it felt "bad" or "negative" or "scary" which was a relief... Tho while it was happening, I did feel some anxiety about "I wonder what happens next?" and "I hope it doesn't get weird or scary". It was fine tho.
My next appt is on Friday and then I'll be getting double today's dose... So I think I'll be a bit anxious then again, hoping that double today's dose doesn't get weird or overwhelming...
The Dr was really pleased tho. Said it went perfectly. No nausea, no rise in blood pressure, no negative side-effects. And he said it was "good" that I experienced it as "trippy" because some people feel nothing and then, usually, it's a sign that the treatment won't help them...
So, overall I'm very relieved that it was a positive experience and that it looks promising.