I've Got To See The New Shrink Today Now.. Stressing Out

[Hlost]

I would really rather be of help to others right now but to tell you the truth after seeing my tdoc yesterday I came home trying to read up faithfully on the therapeutic direction we would be starting to rev up this next month and instead hopped on the internet ordering 2 neck knifes to add to my growing collection of self-protective gear I carry at all times. 3 different varieties of stun guns, mace/pepper sprays, knives, I have a gun but did finally unload my best one away. I refuse to carry them anymore, I just don't trust myself.

In all honesty, I don't feel afraid or like anything is really going to happen to me but there is a part of me that just doesn't feel as prepared as I use to be. It's very uncomfortable.

So I have to see a new shrink today because my old one told me during my appt last month that was going to be my it he was retiring, just like that!! I didn't have time to react or even think about the cause and effect because I have my Brother and his family coming. It had taken me 6yrs to weed out all the nonsense of drs in this area to finally not be treated like a half-wit incapable of making any medical decisions for themselves. Already I've ruled another out due to a battle over a seizure med for no other reason than I had seen him before and he could, I had forgotten but was desperate to make sure my meds were refilled so I could just focus on my therapy. What a jerk! And then he didn't even fill them, costing me the amount of the copay during the Holidays grrrrr!

I'm going to try like crazy to look as normal as possible and not antagonize this dr. I don't want anything changed at this time, at least until I figure what is going on with me. I have several Dxs and
the prominent one at this time, the one that is swarming my life is once again the PTSD. However, I have to remain stabilized in the other areas as much as possible to deal with it, makes sense right? Somehow this does not compute in the real the world but we'll see.

Breathe.

HeatLost

 

[cherryblossom]

I hope your appointment with your new Doc goes/ went ok. It's hard to trust again, and start a new therapeutic relationship, but I guess it has to be done.

I'm concerned about the amount of weapons you have; that's scary to me. But I suppose it could just be different cultures. I would never ever consider carrying a weapon, because it is illegal here in the UK. I'm curious -what is a neck knife?

 

[Hlost]

This shrink/dr is different than the therapist as the therapist doesn't prescribed medications. It ended up that her staff was very very friendly, as I had found previously on the phone, but the doctor had a last minute emergency so they will have to reschedule me. From past experience I've found if the staff is friendly and kind, the same is usually said said for the physician, hence my initial feelings when booking this appointment after researching her creds.

I don't blame your feelings for alarm with regard to my "arsenal" Trust me, I rarely even take full account myself for fear I will see just how out of control it's gotten over this past year. I've never been one to shy away from being careful or seeing to it those I love are equipt with safety gear to protect themselves, just to be smart, not live in fear. Non-lethal items are what I've been use to carrying mostly this last many years since I'm a night walker and can't sleep, like pepper spray. I got spooked when my ex found me and broke into my apt while I was one night with my dog.

A neck knife is a knife that is small and hangs around your neck so you have it with you all the time.

 

[KAT]

I think pepper spray is a great idea :)

 

[Lucycat]

I don't like pepper. Makes me sneeze:no:

 

[KAT]

He he