(((((((((((((((Nighthawlk)))))))))))))))
I am so sorry you have been through so much. As Prime-no said take your time recouping. You might be right about your pain threshold. I finally learned self hypnosis. It is no comparison to your situation, my system burns out the med's so fast it was the only option for having a root canal done.
I am appalled they did not replace while they were already in there. I never thought I would be a candidate for hypnosis. More facilities are realizing the benefits over medications. Your system might be immune to med's as long as you have been dealing with this.
Ten minutes of meditation can do wonders. Your whole being is over taxed. Imagine yourself floating on a big cushy marshmallow in the tropics. Gentle breeze and birds singing. You are safe, as you allow the tension to float out onto the marshmallow and into the pond of beautiful azure water. You may invite anyone you like to share with.
You own this hidden paradise, only those you choose will be allowed entrance. It takes a bit to learn and allow trust in our surroundings. While you practice I will be standing guard! Sending you serenity and calming energy. :hug: Whitney