Kristin's Chaos
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This is my first post in any forum anywhere, so I apologize in advance if I mess up.
I have had PTSD for a really long time, but I came through the worst of it and have been "stable" I thought for almost a year and a half.
I am receiving SSDI, but started back to work through their Ticket To Work program. I was so excited, I found an awesome job for an amazing company. And, dare I say I felt almost "normal". I thought I was doing a great job, got great performance reviews and everything. I was exempt, which I never considered could be a bad thing.
But, my manager called me in last week. He was really angry and he pulled out a calendar from our time card system. Even though I am exempt, it is a secure campus so every employee can be tracked the entire time on campus and every employee is required to swipe out of the gate when leaving.
I have been completely exhausted and in my head I would swear an oath that I am working 12-14 hour days 6-7 days a week. Fits with my work history since I have always been a work-a-holic. But, my manager showed me that since April, I have had some of those 12 hour days, but multiple days a week I have been leaving campus after 4 or 5 hours, and some weeks I haven't gotten close to 40 hours.
I was devastated and just broke down trying to explain that I really didn't know and me squeaky clean by the books, would never defraud the company.
He wasn't hearing any of it and had really decided that after a year of being an outstanding reliable hardworking employee I had just gone bad.
When my PTSD was at it's worst, I was dually diagnosed with DID. I am so scared that it is back, because I have no memory from actually being in my department for the last few months. Meetings, trainings yes, super stressful bully environment, no.
I wrote to him the next day and explained about my PTSD. I told him about the dissociative fugues that had happened to me before. I asked for the benefit of the doubt and to have a chance to payback the hours I had been paid for but not been on campus. I also applied for loa and std.
I am scared because even though he said I would receive a written warning (step 2 of 4 and I have never received one for anything attendance or otherwise). But, since I told him I had applied for std and loa one of my coworkers said he is talking about going right to termination for time card fraud. I can get my medical team to explain that I really didn't know I was losing so much time and leaving work. I can have all of my social security people talk to them and verify it is a legitimate disability. But CA is an at will state, so does that mean they can terminate me even if it was because of a medical disability?
I was never told about my early outs from work, and if I would have been told when it started I would have been able to figure out what was happening and start working on a fix right away. My understanding is an employer has to give a chance for the employee to improve, including a chance to get treatment and come back even if accommodations are necessary to prevent the attendance issues related to a disability.
But, I have so much information in my head, i don't know if any of what I am thinking applies.
Sorry it was so long, I am really scared that I am back in this chaos. Feels like my recovery was a sick joke.
I have had PTSD for a really long time, but I came through the worst of it and have been "stable" I thought for almost a year and a half.
I am receiving SSDI, but started back to work through their Ticket To Work program. I was so excited, I found an awesome job for an amazing company. And, dare I say I felt almost "normal". I thought I was doing a great job, got great performance reviews and everything. I was exempt, which I never considered could be a bad thing.
But, my manager called me in last week. He was really angry and he pulled out a calendar from our time card system. Even though I am exempt, it is a secure campus so every employee can be tracked the entire time on campus and every employee is required to swipe out of the gate when leaving.
I have been completely exhausted and in my head I would swear an oath that I am working 12-14 hour days 6-7 days a week. Fits with my work history since I have always been a work-a-holic. But, my manager showed me that since April, I have had some of those 12 hour days, but multiple days a week I have been leaving campus after 4 or 5 hours, and some weeks I haven't gotten close to 40 hours.
I was devastated and just broke down trying to explain that I really didn't know and me squeaky clean by the books, would never defraud the company.
He wasn't hearing any of it and had really decided that after a year of being an outstanding reliable hardworking employee I had just gone bad.
When my PTSD was at it's worst, I was dually diagnosed with DID. I am so scared that it is back, because I have no memory from actually being in my department for the last few months. Meetings, trainings yes, super stressful bully environment, no.
I wrote to him the next day and explained about my PTSD. I told him about the dissociative fugues that had happened to me before. I asked for the benefit of the doubt and to have a chance to payback the hours I had been paid for but not been on campus. I also applied for loa and std.
I am scared because even though he said I would receive a written warning (step 2 of 4 and I have never received one for anything attendance or otherwise). But, since I told him I had applied for std and loa one of my coworkers said he is talking about going right to termination for time card fraud. I can get my medical team to explain that I really didn't know I was losing so much time and leaving work. I can have all of my social security people talk to them and verify it is a legitimate disability. But CA is an at will state, so does that mean they can terminate me even if it was because of a medical disability?
I was never told about my early outs from work, and if I would have been told when it started I would have been able to figure out what was happening and start working on a fix right away. My understanding is an employer has to give a chance for the employee to improve, including a chance to get treatment and come back even if accommodations are necessary to prevent the attendance issues related to a disability.
But, I have so much information in my head, i don't know if any of what I am thinking applies.
Sorry it was so long, I am really scared that I am back in this chaos. Feels like my recovery was a sick joke.
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