Love And Numbness

[ItalianBoy96]

Dear Community,

I'm Italian and I decided to write on this community because I always found all the answers to my troubles here. I'm in love with a girl since 2 years. We love each other so much, I'm going to move in Mexico for her. We talk and talk, we can't wait the moment we will talk again after a long day. I visited her every times I could and she did the same. Now since we had a fight, for a stupid reason, I'm feel so numb, like I have no more hope. Thing is that she's the same, so full of love and I too. We're still in love but in the moments I feel numb for her I don't feel anything. :( It's so sad because the only thought to leave her kill me. We're in the most awesome moment of our relationship but I feel so numb sometimes. I had a worst past.. since I was kid and she understood me, she accepted me for what I am. I don't know why in some random moments I feel so numb! I mean, I still love her so much! and writing this to this community is helping me, because now I just feel better ( I also say sorry for my english but I'm a bit nervous because I've never wrote something of personal online). Bit I still don't know why! I mean, we are okay, happy etc. Why do I feel so numb sometimes? I do love her! so much! Please help me :(

Thanks to everyone.

 

[Stickler]

I understand the numb feeling.
It always passes, doesn't it?
The love always comes back?

...Well, you know it will. So wait the numbness out.
When you get into arguments, the instant you cannot be calm? Back off. Take a break. Be calm. Discuss things reasonably.

Do you have PTSD? This might not be the best place on the Internet to post this question.

I wish you the best.

 

[ItalianBoy96]

Hi man, yes I have a PTSD. In my childhood I've been beaten from my teachers, I've been bullied always from my teachers and things that embarrassed me.. Like I wasn't able to do anything and this was for all my 5 years of elementary school... in the middle school I've been closed in myself and this for me was a shock! because I haven't had a life till 18 yrs old. I was always scared of going out. I've never told someone about this..