I was abused by my father mentally, emotionally, and physically growing up We have since mended our relationship and he has become one of my best friends and someone I can talk to about anything now. But I still have nightmares at least twice a month of trying to escape him and my stepmom. I was also mentally, emotionally, and physically abused by multiple different leadership and coworkers while serving in the US Air Force. I was medically retired in November of 22 and stayed in the same state I was stationed in due to being in a relationship with a man who is still serving active duty. My partner is amazing and is so understanding, but being here in this city with all of these memories and stories about me floating around seems to just be making me more and more unhappy and depressed. My significant other is trying his best to get stationed somewhere else but its really just the flip of a coin. I am not sure what I should do or how to get rid of this terrible feeling. I haven't eaten in two days I've been so sick over this. Has anyone been through this before? Can anyone help?