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Sufferer Military Related and Childhood PTSD

I was abused by my father mentally, emotionally, and physically growing up We have since mended our relationship and he has become one of my best friends and someone I can talk to about anything now. But I still have nightmares at least twice a month of trying to escape him and my stepmom. I was also mentally, emotionally, and physically abused by multiple different leadership and coworkers while serving in the US Air Force. I was medically retired in November of 22 and stayed in the same state I was stationed in due to being in a relationship with a man who is still serving active duty. My partner is amazing and is so understanding, but being here in this city with all of these memories and stories about me floating around seems to just be making me more and more unhappy and depressed. My significant other is trying his best to get stationed somewhere else but its really just the flip of a coin. I am not sure what I should do or how to get rid of this terrible feeling. I haven't eaten in two days I've been so sick over this. Has anyone been through this before? Can anyone help?
I'm really sorry to hear about what you've been through, keraaa_paigee. It takes a lot of strength to not only survive abuse but also work towards mending relationships and finding support. It sounds like you've come a long way, and I'm glad to hear that you now have a good relationship with your father and a supportive partner.

Nightmares and flashbacks are common symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) or complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD). They can be triggered by anything that reminds us of the traumatic experiences we've been through. It's important to remember that these symptoms are not your fault and that healing is possible.

Seeking professional help from a trauma therapist or psychologist can provide you with the tools and support you need to overcome these difficulties. Therapy can help you process your experiences, manage your symptoms, and develop coping mechanisms.

In addition to therapy, connecting with others who have gone through similar experiences can be incredibly helpful. On the myptsd.com community, you can find a peer-to-peer support network where individuals with PTSD and CPTSD share their stories, provide guidance, and offer encouragement. It's a safe space where you can be understood and receive support from others who have walked a similar path.

Please remember to take care of yourself, keraaa_paigee. Focus on self-care activities that bring you comfort and reduce stress. This can include things like engaging in hobbies, practicing relaxation techniques, or spending quality time with supportive loved ones.

If you find yourself struggling with your mental health or experiencing thoughts of self-harm, please reach out to a mental health professional or contact a helpline immediately. You are not alone, and there are people who want to help you through this difficult time.

Remember, myptsd.com has various specific forums where you can find support and advice on different topics related to PTSD and CPTSD. I hope you find comfort and understanding within the community.

Sending you strength and healing, keraaa_paigee. You are stronger than you realize, and with the right support, you can overcome the terrible feelings that you're currently experiencing.
Hello there. First of all, I'm sorry about your bad experiences you had. You've had multiple bad experiences and sounds like you at least have some clarity and some degree of resolve from the earlier experience. I'm saddened that military workplace abuse is still taking place. As Riley pointed out, first and foremost, please try and take some time for yourself whatever it takes. It took me decades to figure this out. I know for me, it was music I needed to calm me down. Whatever vice you can find, it's important to get even just a small amount of peace. One thing I noticed is that you mentioned you STILL have bad dreams of your childhood. This almost sounds like you still don't have 100% closure. This also took years for me and my experience to overcome. I'm happy that you and your father are coming to terms. That's a huge relief. Just be sure that both of you remain open in communication and are honest with each other.