My College Classes Start Today

[Lady of Longbourn]

My English teacher I like. I have had her before and she is calm and organized like normal. One of my English textbooks is also out of date. Usually it's not a big deal, sometimes it's possible to work around but it doesn't look possible in this case. I am hoping that I may be able to sell my old copy back to the school to help pay for the new $60 book. The price actually isn't so bad. My history book was $150 at my college, no used copies available. Thankfully I got my used copy almost a year ago and from Amazon for much cheaper. Shop around!

My history teacher seems more eccentric, which isn't a bad thing. He seems more blunt and not as organized. He is much older then my English teacher as well. He was wearing a suit jacket with a turtleneck under it. And gold chain with a huge soild star on it with some sort of jewels things on it. He told us that he often gets asked about it and no, it's not the Star of David. Which made me think "well, duh...it doesn't look anything like the Star of David." But I have learned that there are lots of people in the world that don't pay attention I guess. I could tell he was a bit annoyed by it. Apparently he is Tibetan Buddhist. Something else I need to add to my list of things to read about.

But it turned out to be a very long day. I left home 45 minutes before class started. An hour in English, which was let out early. A 2 hour lunch and shopping break and then back to school for an hour and 20 minutes of History. Then I went to the mall. I was out for 6 whole hours straight yesterday and by the time I got home I was totally over drawn. And on Tuesdays I don't have a almost 2 hour break, instead its 40 minutes. With my anxiety, even though restaurants I like are right next to the school I am unsure if I will go. I am terrified to be late and get marked late or lose points. So I might be going hungry on Tuesdays for awhile. I'll take a snack.

Today I also called the disability services for the college. I have worked with them before but just needed to know if she wanted updated doctors letter. The one they have is about a year old so I just needed to know if they want something recent. It's no issue at all for me but I need to get the paperwork done sooner rather then later. She seemed somewhat nice on the phone but relecent too. She asked if I could come in today or Tuesday. Today...well, I can but it's a hour drive altogether for only about 5 minutes of talking. Tuesday yes becasue I have class. But History teacher needs it by Tuesday so if I go in and she wants new stuff. She said she needs to look at my file and she will call me back later today. She seemed somewhat helpful but I question if she actually will call me back. I am unsure why that once her first suggestion instead she wanted me to come in for what would have been, literally 2 minutes. Her office is a once room job and my file is right there. :O_o: The disability services at my school is alright, but they get new people a lot and they don't seem to work full time. It's hard to explain but while helpful their heart doesn't always seem in it.

I am still unsure about the Ipad. I forgot to discuss it last night with Husband. I might be able too but we still need to talk about it.

 

[Britt.f7]

Congratulations on your first day of classes! You can do this. Bring a snack sounds like a good idea. Sounds like things got a little hectic towards the end of the day yesterday, but, again, you can do this.

Is there any way you can take your night meds a little earlier so as to not have you feel out of it in the beginning of the day? That might help.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I am still unsure about the Ipad.

Husband reformatted it just for me and then he put in all my settings. :D He is so sweet. :inlove: Now I have an iPad for English class. History class is; "NO electric devices or I will kick you out of class!" Big difference there. :meh:

@Britt.f7 It did get hectic. It was a good day and it went by fast but I am shocked how well I handled it. I was really worn out but I was still alright.

College wouldn't take back my old English textbook. So I bought a used copy of the updated book I need for $52. We took the old book to a local used bookstore that we like and they offered us 30 cents for it because they could only sell it for about 75 cents. It's out of date and useless now I guess. But husband and I both like the book and I have some good notes in it. :D

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Today I also called the disability services for the college.

I called Friday and she said "I will call you by the end of the day." She didn't. Monday goes by, no phone call. Annoyed now. My husband says the office is run like a Indian government office. :laugh::rolleyes: But history teacher wants the paperwork by 2nd class which is tomorrow. I can't help it if people don't do their damn job. Every year that office has a new person. I'll have to go to school tomorrow and see if she is even there.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I did get all the paperwork done. I had to go track her down becasue she didn't bother to call me back. There was a student worker there, which made me a bit uncomfortable. The student is from a university and the disability services lady told me "You can trust her with your information. You can tell anything to her that you can to me. "

So nothing then I guess. :O_o:

I think I just sort of figured out what bothers me. The lady acts really sweet and maybe she does her job but I get a flaky impression from her too. Reminds me of the school counselors in grade school. Never trusted them either for the same reason. I am more then willing to use the services if I need too and they will help me but I wont depend on them.

3rd day of class is tomorrow. School days are about 6 hour days. I count travel time, actual class, break and driving home in that becasue from when I leave to when I get home again it's all anxiety ridden. The break I get in between classes really helps but it's not relaxed on the same level that I would be if I was home.

 

[BLHutch]

Good luck with your classes! I'm glad to hear that you like history. I teach history at a community college now that my law enforcement days are over. I suffer from PTSD and let me tell you, teaching can be very hard sometimes when you are worried about having a dissociative episode in front of the class. I do tell my students about my PTSD. I'm a pretty laid back professor who is younger than just about all our other faculty. (I'm 35) The funny thing is that my students tend to get very protective of me over the course of a semester. They can tell when I've been having a hard time and go out of their way to talk to me about stuff and ask me how I'm doing. It means the world to me. Students can touch teacher's lives too. And I have some of the best students in the world.

Enjoy your time in class. And for the record, I think that most history professors are a little eccentric! It is a requirement or something.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Tuesday...so school today.

I go to school only twice a week but for 6 hours at a time. I have been noticing the rest of my week I am starting to isolate a bit more. School days make me feel very tired and worn out but I do enjoy them.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I was hoping something good would happen at school today. Just to remind me of the benefits. Got my first two English assignments back. 10 out of 10 and 11 out of 10!

:whistling:

Forgot to do some reading but I just took out my iPad and got it on there. Spending my break reading it. Again, and I think I will be saying this a lot, thank god for my iPad!

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

History teacher shows a clip from a film. The 1932 version of "The Mummy". I am not hanging around for that. I don't care how old it is or that it might not be scary. I can't stand it, can't stand not knowing what might scare me, thinking about how embarrassed I would be if I jumped and screamed. It was like 10 degrees outside, I had my coat on and I was sweating nervous. I got up and left the class hoping breathing will help. It sort of did but I didn't want to go back in. I tried, but just ended up hyperventilating at the thought. I was worried too that the teacher would notice me gone for awhile I would get in trouble. I checked once and the lights were still off...checked again and the lights were on. Went back in and the rest was notes. If the teacher noticed he didn't say anything. I was gone for maybe 15 minutes.

15 minutes and I spent the whole time questioning all the crap I went through to be in college this semester. I was so angry at myself for being there. It was just a movie, just 10 or 15 minutes of my life and I was willing to not be in college, a big life changer, at all at that moment.

 

[BLHutch]

I always tell my students exactly what is going to be in a video clip before I show it in my History Courses. As a PTSD sufferer, I do not want to make another fellow traveler down the PTSD Road upset by something that I may show in class. Every video clip I use is relevant to the material, of course, but some of it may be disturbing. (Especially videos relating to warfare given the number of veterans that my college has.)

I doubt your professor even noticed, and if he did, it is highly unlikely you would get in trouble. I always tell my students that since they are adults and this is college and not prison, they are free to leave the room at any time and for any reason. I just ask that if they are leaving permanently in the middle of class (as opposed to a restroom break or something) that they let me know beforehand if possible so that I can make sure that I mark them present for the day.

Hopefully you will have a better day in class tomorrow. For that matter, I hope I do too.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

My first class of the day was cancelled. Everyone was happy about it but I wasn't. We were supposed to have a mini test and I was looking forward to my perfect grade I knew I was going to get. Next time I guess. I enjoy proving to myself and others that I am capable and smart.

My husband came to school with me. He has a business trip and I needed to drop him at the airport. So after first class we would drive to the airport and then I would return to college for my next class. We would have an hour and 40 mintues but I was still nervous.

Walking with him into the college was an odd feeling. He was going to sit in my college library during my class. He is wearing his normal suit, dress shirt and sweater, carrying a briefcase. He looked like a professor, which he is just at a university and not my college.

But it was still an odd feeling walking with a guy you couldn't possibly mistake for a student. I felt older and I couldn't shake my amusement of that the fact that I am married to a professor.

Speaking of which when my husband found out and the history teacher movie problem, he was pretty upset. " I would have never done something so stupid..." He kept saying. " you [teachers] can't do things like that, you never know who is in your class...he should have told you..." Then he was grumpy about it and told me I did well in leaving though I felt stupid because its am old movie so how bad could it have been? But I left because I couldn't ignore my hyperventaling.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Thought of skipping my last class. Grumpy, sleepy and dreaming of the near by used bookstore. But I knew I would regret it so here in class I am.

I find it annoying when I hear people say how interesting they find their pyschogly class. I guess when you live it, you don't find it so amazing.