AutumnMaidenDove
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Hello everyone. I was researching sites on Google and came across this site. I don't really know where to start, except for the very beginning. First of all, I want to introduce myself. My name is Corrina. I am 29 years of age. I currently live in Northern California. Growing up, I lived in a very abusive home at the hands of my very own father. From birth until the age of 4 or 5, my Dad was good to me. When I started to grow up, well things changed. Some memories I still have locked somewhere in my mind. I've slowly remembered more over the years, after a lot of therapy.
Anyway, the abuse was in many forms. Verbal, physical and sexual. I have few memories of him actually molesting me. If there are more, I haven't remember them as of yet. The first thing with that kind of abuse I remember was when I was about 6-8 years of age. My brother and I were outside playing. My Dad built what he called "a playhouse" for us kids and it was way in the back of the backyard. Well one evening, my Dad had my brother lure me to the "playhouse". Which was basically just a shed. I got grabbed and yanked into the shed and was being touched by someone. I couldn't see who it was, since there were no windows on the shed and it was dark inside. I screamed and cried for the person to let me go. I know it was my father because our year was fended in and no stranger could get in the yard since the gate was always locked, "for our safety".
The next memory is when I was about 13 years of age. I was in the living room watching tv. I don't recall where my Mom and older sister were, but I know they were NOT home. I was sitting next to my Dad, and he put his hand on my inner thigh. I pushed his hand away and yelled, "Don't touch me!" and I ran to my room. I didn't tell my Mom right away. I at the time did NOT know he has molested my older sister a few years prior. So one day when my Dad was at work, my Mom and older sister took me into my parent's bedroom, and my Mom asked me a question. She asked me, "Corrina, has your father ever touched you in a way that made you feel uncomfortable?" I hadn't remembered about the time I was a child until a few years later. But I did remember the recent incident at the house. I broke down in tears and told my Mom what had happened. It was then I found out that when I was about 10 years of age, my Mom had walked in on my Dad molesting my sister. Charges were brought against him at the time, but when it was all going on, all I knew was my Dad was arrested. I didn't have any details on the reason why until the time she told me what happened. He took a plea bargain and got 5 years probation.
I later found out more things about my Dad's past after their divorce, which wasn't too long after the time they told me what happened. Maybe 6 months later. Could be sooner, my memory isn't so sharp on dates. Well a few years later, we had moved from the house we lived in during the divorce by this time. I found out from my Mom, that back in the 1970's, my Dad was arrested and convicted of raping a 14 year old girl. He plead guilty back then as well and took a plea bargain. I know he did some time, but before he was caught, he ran from the law, taking my Mom and two older siblings to the state of Montana.
Well, later in the years, I rarely had contact with my Dad. If he contacted any of us kids, it was because he wanted something from us. Well, there were a few scary incidents with my Dad. When I was 16, while my Aunt, Uncle and cousins were visiting, my Dad started to stalk me. I was afraid he was going to kidnap me to get back at my Mom for leaving him for good. We had attempted break-ins and we feel he had something to do with them.
About two years ago, my Dad showed up at our door-step. Claiming he just wanted a better relationship with us. I knew that was a lie. I never believe anything he tells me. My family and I knew something was up, but we just didn't know what, YET. Well a few weeks later, we heard nothing from him, which he found odd. Why out of all those years of being either harassed or ignored, why would he show up and then all of a sudden stop? Well we got a phone call about month later from my eldest brother, who is now married and has a beautiful little girl. He told us that our Dad was on the news and to watch the story unfolding. The broadcaster then announced, that he was arrested on multiple counts of sexual abuse of a child. Finally, the truth came out. His bail was set to 1 million dollars and he's been in jail ever since. We contacted the detective, who at the time, got in touch with the news to find his "estranged family". Come to find out, he wouldn't tell the detectives where we were. So we called them. They made an appointment and took all of our statements. They even have record of him threatening my life the prior two years before he was arrested.
Well this comes to the current day. My Dad has convinced my Uncle that he's innocent. So my Uncle, being the naive person he is, has hired him an attorney. Also, today a "private detective" came by our house, wanting "information". My father is a sociopath and a psychopath. He is the only person that scares me. He has harassed us by letter and phone calls from my Uncle since his arrest. I am afraid to even go outside. I know he has had us followed and watched. He doesn't want the truth to come out. He knows we're helping the prosecution convict him. I don't know what to do or where to turn for help. I don't even know if there is anything my family and I can do to protect ourselves from him or anyone he sends to either harass us or hurt us. He is capable of anything. He will do anything to silence us. I've emailed the District Attorney, informing her of the private detective that came by, asking her if we should even talk to him. Once I find out I will let you all know what she has told us.
So I'm asking anyone here, is there anything I can do, with using the means of the law, to protect my family and I from my Dad, his family and his so-called attorney? Please, I am asking for any help I can get. Thank you for reading my story.
PS - I now suffer with PTSD, anxiety and depression.
Anyway, the abuse was in many forms. Verbal, physical and sexual. I have few memories of him actually molesting me. If there are more, I haven't remember them as of yet. The first thing with that kind of abuse I remember was when I was about 6-8 years of age. My brother and I were outside playing. My Dad built what he called "a playhouse" for us kids and it was way in the back of the backyard. Well one evening, my Dad had my brother lure me to the "playhouse". Which was basically just a shed. I got grabbed and yanked into the shed and was being touched by someone. I couldn't see who it was, since there were no windows on the shed and it was dark inside. I screamed and cried for the person to let me go. I know it was my father because our year was fended in and no stranger could get in the yard since the gate was always locked, "for our safety".
The next memory is when I was about 13 years of age. I was in the living room watching tv. I don't recall where my Mom and older sister were, but I know they were NOT home. I was sitting next to my Dad, and he put his hand on my inner thigh. I pushed his hand away and yelled, "Don't touch me!" and I ran to my room. I didn't tell my Mom right away. I at the time did NOT know he has molested my older sister a few years prior. So one day when my Dad was at work, my Mom and older sister took me into my parent's bedroom, and my Mom asked me a question. She asked me, "Corrina, has your father ever touched you in a way that made you feel uncomfortable?" I hadn't remembered about the time I was a child until a few years later. But I did remember the recent incident at the house. I broke down in tears and told my Mom what had happened. It was then I found out that when I was about 10 years of age, my Mom had walked in on my Dad molesting my sister. Charges were brought against him at the time, but when it was all going on, all I knew was my Dad was arrested. I didn't have any details on the reason why until the time she told me what happened. He took a plea bargain and got 5 years probation.
I later found out more things about my Dad's past after their divorce, which wasn't too long after the time they told me what happened. Maybe 6 months later. Could be sooner, my memory isn't so sharp on dates. Well a few years later, we had moved from the house we lived in during the divorce by this time. I found out from my Mom, that back in the 1970's, my Dad was arrested and convicted of raping a 14 year old girl. He plead guilty back then as well and took a plea bargain. I know he did some time, but before he was caught, he ran from the law, taking my Mom and two older siblings to the state of Montana.
Well, later in the years, I rarely had contact with my Dad. If he contacted any of us kids, it was because he wanted something from us. Well, there were a few scary incidents with my Dad. When I was 16, while my Aunt, Uncle and cousins were visiting, my Dad started to stalk me. I was afraid he was going to kidnap me to get back at my Mom for leaving him for good. We had attempted break-ins and we feel he had something to do with them.
About two years ago, my Dad showed up at our door-step. Claiming he just wanted a better relationship with us. I knew that was a lie. I never believe anything he tells me. My family and I knew something was up, but we just didn't know what, YET. Well a few weeks later, we heard nothing from him, which he found odd. Why out of all those years of being either harassed or ignored, why would he show up and then all of a sudden stop? Well we got a phone call about month later from my eldest brother, who is now married and has a beautiful little girl. He told us that our Dad was on the news and to watch the story unfolding. The broadcaster then announced, that he was arrested on multiple counts of sexual abuse of a child. Finally, the truth came out. His bail was set to 1 million dollars and he's been in jail ever since. We contacted the detective, who at the time, got in touch with the news to find his "estranged family". Come to find out, he wouldn't tell the detectives where we were. So we called them. They made an appointment and took all of our statements. They even have record of him threatening my life the prior two years before he was arrested.
Well this comes to the current day. My Dad has convinced my Uncle that he's innocent. So my Uncle, being the naive person he is, has hired him an attorney. Also, today a "private detective" came by our house, wanting "information". My father is a sociopath and a psychopath. He is the only person that scares me. He has harassed us by letter and phone calls from my Uncle since his arrest. I am afraid to even go outside. I know he has had us followed and watched. He doesn't want the truth to come out. He knows we're helping the prosecution convict him. I don't know what to do or where to turn for help. I don't even know if there is anything my family and I can do to protect ourselves from him or anyone he sends to either harass us or hurt us. He is capable of anything. He will do anything to silence us. I've emailed the District Attorney, informing her of the private detective that came by, asking her if we should even talk to him. Once I find out I will let you all know what she has told us.
So I'm asking anyone here, is there anything I can do, with using the means of the law, to protect my family and I from my Dad, his family and his so-called attorney? Please, I am asking for any help I can get. Thank you for reading my story.
PS - I now suffer with PTSD, anxiety and depression.
