My Therapist Doesn't Want To Know..

[Leanne1]

Wow. Thanks bloominwinter. I'm actually on my way to see my therapist now. Just checked in for some support. It helped:)

 

[EvenStrongerNow]

You're doing great (((Leanne))) I'm so glad you are going to talk to her about what you've been experiencing before and after sessions.

By the way, I am going through this same thing right now. I found a whole network of support when I came on these forums and decided to be open about it. I learned that I need to learn coping skills and apply them. I've been finding much peace in remaining accountable over the past couple of days. Making a plan and sticking to it (coming here and updating on my progress so I don't forget because during flashbacks, it feels like I'm going crazy).

It's all very normal.

You're not crazy.

 

[Leanne1]

Waiting for my appointment to start. I'm ten minutes early, waiting outside, scared to go in. I am doing this for my 4 year old son, cause ivwantvto be a good mom, and I do feel crazy.

 

[EvenStrongerNow]

You can do this. You are a great mom. You made it to the appointment and you're 10 minutes early? That's awesome! Good job showing up for yourself.

You aren't crazy. You feel crazy, but you aren't. I know that feeling. You got this.

Before you do anything, explain to your T what you've been experiencing before, during and after sessions.

 

[Rumors]

You ARE a rock star!!!! Sending strength!

 

[Leanne1]

Phew! I'm home now. Thanks for the encouragement. I did my best to describe what I have been experiencing. I think it went well. So strange telling someone what I have been feeling. We spoke about my maybe talking to my doctor about a medication to help with the panic and anxiety I experience. I am going to think about that. I am really not wanting that, but have to admit to myself how much I scared myself last week. Maybe it can help with the times that I feel like I am there again? ( in my past)

We didn't do any work on anything directly related to the traumas I experienced. She said she wanted to work on things for me to be able to manage the panic and stuff I feel during the week. I asked more questions and she clarified some things I didn't understand.

This week I am going to practice, three times a day focusing on positive thoughts like what I appreciate about my life, what I love and joy that I feel. She said that my thoughts can just start to fixate on the negative and become distorted. I am going to work on becoming present again to the life I fought for and do love. It just feels that it has slipped away. Apparently it is still there?

Anyway. I wanted to thank you all for the encouragement and most of all I want to say how much the compassion you have given me has effected me. I don't know how to diiscribe how unexpected it is.

Tonite is the first time in I can't remember that I am feeling peace. I don't want to move, or ask why to much. I am going to savor this as long as it lasts. Hey, I'm doing the homework my therapist gave me! Yeah. This moment of peace and contentment is the first thing that I will alow myself to be great full for.

 

[Mercy]

Congratulations! You have made a very good start. I think, might be in error, that there is a thread on grounding on the forum.

 

[Mercy]

Grounding Exercise For Dissociating
Discussion in 'Symptoms & Other Disorders' started by anthony, Dec 23, 2009.
To see this technique for grounding by Anthony, the wise, just click on the blue letters. Anthony is the founder of this forum. Even though he wrote this in 2009, it is very much accurate and appliable to any of us with grounding, and learning to get grounded. There are many techniques. I'm sure your T will teach you some too.

 

[Leanne1]

Thank you mercy. I'll check it out.

 

[EvenStrongerNow]

I'm so glad it went so well. Be proud of yourself. You're doing tough work. My last T used to remind me all of the time how there are millions of people in this world who will never ever attempt to heal. It takes so much courage to do what we are all here doing.

Enjoy that peace :) :) :D