Need To Explain But I Can't! - I Am Confused :s

[timetorecover]

Since being ill, I have pulled away from my family and friends. I feel like I want to explain to my parents what I am going through but they trigger me so instead I have spent months avoiding them or being off when I do see them.

My husband gets the brunt of it, poor sod, has got no real understanding of mental illness and I think he is actually scared of me, not ideal!

I want to get better and i am on a recovery journey but feel so confused about my feelings that I do not know where to start. I do not want to portion blame or burden but then I am holding it all in... HELP!

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[Joslyn]

I really appreciate your honesty and your tag name "time to recover". There is your answer.

I got to a point that my priority was therapy and as much as I could fit into my schedule. Only you can determine if that is the right answer for you.

As for explaining, I am not sure about your specifics. But, for me? I waited until I knew myself. Just the idea that you are planning to get some help you think you need would make anyone feel good. I don't share about my recovery much in general unless it is within a forum such as this, a therapist and only a very few number of supporters (husband, friend).

I know you will find your way and its good to get support. Take your time and be easy on yourself. you will discover more about who should be in your trusted circle of support.

 

[timetorecover]

Thank you Joslyn, I am really grateful for your words!

I am so pleased to have found this site as I have so little support and understanding around me. I am at the point where therapy is my priority and have been trying to fit it around my kids.

Thanks again x

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[Loloma]

(((timetorecover)))

You have made a start knowing that you need help. It is extra hard caring for children whilst going through this. I hope you find the help you need, this forum is a good outlet to express your feeling and get positive feed back and help from others. You are not alone. All the best and hang in there. ;)