girlwithwings
New Here
Just sayin hi to everyone, I'm 31 and was molested by my dad as a small child, then just beat and finally emotionally/mentally abused until i left home at 15. I live in Northwest Florida and I would like to find others who would not treat me like I am a freak. I am, but I did not choose to be this way. And I'm a sweetish kinda freak, I think. Honestly I am proud of myself to still be here and sometimes I need to feel like thats good enough to smile about. I get thorough the day, I am glad. I have stuck through so much suffering and not knowing and being lost. I feel alienated from other women who are whole and fine and happy yay everything is how they want it. It's hard as a mom now myself. I have also recently had some serious health problems including a minor stroke. I have a history of all kinds of problems with my body, and that's been scary recently because I spent my whole life thinking I was gonna die tomorrow, saying "I'm not afraid of that", and kinda wishing I would.. and now I have my son and I don't want to. My son also has immune disorder, and trauma of his own (not sexual thank god thank god)(but I have never been able to leave him with any male other than his Dad who I know I can trust, not even my best friend whos a guy b/c I thought if he's not who I think he is that's ok but nobody is ever going to have the chance to hurt him, and I felt bad but I just couldn't) So that's it for now. Thank you all, for letting me do this..
