DID Parts barely Around

[Reflections]

This year I focused mainly on my mental health and relationships. Things were going pretty well and I'd have some hours where I wasn't experiencing depersonalization or derealization, which is a pretty big deal for me! So great! About mid year in the summer I started working more and eventually trying to get a job at a big company. All the while talking to my girlfriend about visiting again and possibly moving in next year (I'm not financially independent yet, and have been trying to get there). I've been working my butt off, and I've been getting more stressed and depressed. During this time my parts started to come out less and less. Till it seemed like they were gone. When I started to act like one of my parts when he wasn't fronting I started to worry that maybe he integrated without me realizing it, that maybe they all had or most of them. When I tried to talk to parts the communication was faint if at all nothing. So it was really upsetting me. The other day I got really depressed over something and my protective part fronted. Last night I just asked how they were doing and I felt so much anxiety. So I don't think they are done to a degree but I'm not sure what's going on. Especially since in times past when I was overwhelmed parts came out to take care of things, why would it be different now?

I'm going to finally see my therapist tomorrow (due to her being busy I couldn't see her for a month or so). I just wanted to hear from others, if you guys have been through a similar experience. Where your parts seemed gone, quiet, or not at all. Was it due to integration or not?

 

[whiteraven]

Oh, mine disappear for long periods. I asked one of the little ones (who is very nosy and pretty bossy and knows everything) where everyone was. She said, "Well...everybody is *busy*." Like, you stupid woman, where do you think everybody is? LOL

I usually think that when the ones that help don't show up, it's because it's time for me to work things out on my own. Kinda sucks, but it ends up being really helpful in the long run. And, as I do more and more for myself, I have started to feel more confident and able to manage things on my own.

 

[TruthSeeker]

Oh, mine disappear for long periods. I asked one of the little ones (who is very nosy and pretty bossy and knows everything) where everyone was. She said, "Well...everybody is *busy*." Like, you stupid woman, where do you think everybody is? LOL

I usually think that when the ones that help don't show up, it's because it's time for me to work things out on my own. Kinda sucks, but it ends up being really helpful in the long run. And, as I do more and more for myself, I have started to feel more confident and able to manage things on my own.

Your description of what happens reminds me of some of the responses I get from mine. This makes me chuckle....and you are right....I end up learning and doing more as a result of some part not showing on cue.