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The total treatment lasted 6 months. I originally was treated as a day patient, but as I was not doing it properly, ie I kept trying to contact my BF, they decided to up the tempo so to speak, and kept me in for a bit. This is where the PTSD started. My mind closed off most of the memories of the aversion therapy, until slowly releasing it via flashbacks etc over the last 3 years. I only remembered seeing BF die and everything else was blanked out.
When I was diagnosed with PTSD in 1998, I couldn't remember the worst of the AT and they treated me for what they saw a my primary problem of seeing my BF die. If only I had been treat with EMDR for the AT, my mind might have made the connections then.
But as people often say about blocked off memories from trauma, the memories will only come back (if at all) when one is ready for them. Maybe I wasn't ready for the truth in 1998 but I was in 2011.
When I was diagnosed with PTSD in 1998, I couldn't remember the worst of the AT and they treated me for what they saw a my primary problem of seeing my BF die. If only I had been treat with EMDR for the AT, my mind might have made the connections then.
But as people often say about blocked off memories from trauma, the memories will only come back (if at all) when one is ready for them. Maybe I wasn't ready for the truth in 1998 but I was in 2011.
