Risky Behaviours When Feeling Depressed And Suicidal

[Ikup]

I've noticed that I started to become more risky.. I met a guy that is older than me by 10 years that will have sex with me. I met him a week ago and we are already talking about meeting up to talk before we do anything. I'm walking earlier so I feel the air of the passing car brush me, I'm walking closer to the train tracks, aggravating people that annoy me that seem like they could easily beat me up, smoking cannabis with an old friend and getting high in somewhat public places such as movie theaters and walking around with the pen. I get bored so easily now. my life is boring and I want to do something.. I want to feel something and so I'm watching myself do these things.. Why and how do I get over this? I mean I know it's because I'm depressed but why do people lean to toward the risky side of things?

 

[Evik]

Self destructive and risk taking behaviors are common in people with PTSD. I took every risk in the book trying to escape the pain I felt. I only stopped when I realized my choices were likely to get someone else killed as well as myself.

 

[Zaze]

(supporter here)

My guess would be just so you can "feel" something. But wth do I know. Lol Be safe!!